quote of the day

"Remember that boos are for ghosts and cheers is where everybody knows your name."
              -Zack, Little White Lie

*Little White Lie is a Starkid production, shot like a tv show
**Zack is played by Brian Holden, who is such a boss

words of wisdom

"Here in the real world, all equals are created animal, but some are more animal than others."
            -Humble, It's Kind of a Funny Story

shamelessly plugging

Ok, so me and my friend C.W. are formulating a plan to try and get Team Starkid on Glee.  We've clearly got too much free time on our hands haha.  However, we've got a tumblr set up, so if you'd like to support us, follow at gleekid1713/tumblr.com and message us about helping.  We'd greatly appreciate it.  Also, we're in the process of making a twitter, so once that's set up, I'll post the name for that as well.  If there are any GleeKid fans, please comment or anything. 
signed, GleeKids rule

life as a Starship Ranger

As you all know, life as a Starship Ranger can be filled with adventures.  However, mine is usually not haha.  Right now, I'm just watching Starship while babysitting.  Oh, joy. haha.  Anyways, not much is happening in my life now, so I guess I'll end this post now.
signed, a boring Starship Ranger

words of wisdom

"I'd rather be with someone screwed up and open about it than someone perfect and ready to explode."
         -Craig, It's Kind of a Funny Story

Jane Austen Book Club by Karen Joy Fowler

Nothing ever moves in a straight line in Karen Joy Fowler's fiction, and in her latest, the complex dance of modern love has never been so devious or so much fun.

Six Californians join to discuss Jane Austen's novels. Over the six months they meet, marriages are tested, affairs begin, unsuitable arrangements become suitable, and love happens. With her finely sighted eye for the frailties of human behavior and her finely tuned ear for the absurdities of social intercourse, Fowler has never been wittier nor her characters more appealing. The result is a delicious dissection of modern relationships.

Dedicated Austenites will delight in unearthing the echoes of Austen that run through the novel, but most readers will simply enjoy the vision and voice that, despite two centuries of separation, unite two great writers of brilliant social comedy.


I realize the above summary sucks haha.  However, the book itself is actually good and entertaining.  I'd give it 4/5 stars.

Ella Minnow Pea by Mark Dunn

Ella Minnow Pea is a girl the age of 18 who begins the book by writing a series of letters to her cousin Tassie, who has journeyed off-island to the Village. Her first letter explains her concern for what is happening to the cenotaph of the founder of their lofty language, Nevin Nollop. His famous sentence is tiled on the monument on the island of Nollop to exhibit its existence. As the story proceeds, various letters begin falling off the cenotaph. From there on the five High Council members decide that the aforementioned falling of the tile is a sign from Nollop that these letters should not be used any longer. They see it as a challenge to better the citizens of Nollop and anyone who is to disobey these laws will have infractions to deal with. "We slowly conclude that without language, without culture--the two are inextricably bound--existence itself is at stake" (Malin 153). Through this interpretation and other events which take place during this novel, a series of word-plays and crazy actions by citizens form this book into an entertaining piece of literature for all.



I absolutely loved this book.  We had to read it for our AP English class, but I would've read it anyway. My friends and I loved it so much, that we are actually trying to do it as well hahaha.  Wish us luck with that :P.I'd recommend this to anyone, for sure. 5 out of 5 stars.

paper towns by john green

Quentin Jacobsen has spent a lifetime loving the magnificently adventurous Margo Roth Spiegelman from afar. So when she cracks open a window and climbs back into his life–dressed like a ninja and summoning him for an ingenious campaign of revenge–he follows.
After their all-nighter ends and a new day breaks, Q arrives at school to discover that Margo, always an enigma, has now become a mystery. But Q soon learns that there are clues–and they’re for him. Urged down a disconnected path, the closer he gets, the less Q sees of the girl he thought he knew.


In my humble opinion, this book was well written.  It kept my short attention span occupied, however the ending did disappoint me personally.  I won't ruin it for you, should you decide to read it yourselves, but I was hoping for a more dramatic ending.  I'd definitely give it 5 out of 5 stars though.

books!

considering this is still "Tales of a High School Bookworm", I'll post some book thingys and my rates and whether or not I think they're worth reading
signed, be right back

boys 41

The awkward turtles I have had were with J.B.  Once was in the lunchroom when me and my friends were leaving to go to a classroom; he was staring at me while I was walking towards the doors.  This is extremely weird because he still has a girlfriend.  Also, a few days before school started, he texted me out of the blue asking if I was still with T.E.It was soooooooooo weird considering they're actually close friends and whatnot and me and J.B.are hardly acquaintances anymore.  I sincerely hope that he's not still harboring a crush on me and that this is the last time you will read his initials
signed, too hopeful

life as a StarshipRanger

So, it's the third week of school and I've already been late on a project *shrugs*At least it wasonly newspaper and not English or Physics.  My life isn't all that exciting lately, and I've only had a few awkward turtles lately because T.E. and T.C. went to different schools.  HOWEVER, that's for another post...
signed, junior blues

quote of the day

"In 900 years of time and space and I've never met anybody who wasn't important before."
                         -the 11th Doctor
signed, a whovian

boys 40

I've come to the conclusion that with C.B., this is the closest I have ever been to what the hopeless romantics such as myself refer to as love.  The thing is, we aren't even  planning for the future.  We're just taking it day by day, hoping for the best.  I think that's the beauty of it; we aren't talking about being together forever or being married with kids, a house, jobs and a mortgage.  It's like we're content with just talking to each other, being in each other's presence.  There aren't limitations or things hanging over our heads, just us.  Well, this is getting sappier than I had hoped, haha.  Perhaps I should stop before I get carried away and anyone out there reading this gets fed up with my rambling.  On the other hand(because there are always two sides), it is my blog, haha.  So, here is one last thing for me to say about me and C.B. and then I'll stop for now at least :P  I really hope that this time we can make it last, during the school year.  Cause honestly, I worry about it; he's a senior and just got a job, I'm a junior and working on getting a job.  What if we can't work it out, what if it ends up like last year where it's like we weren't even friends? I can't speak for him directly, but this time, I'm in deeper, I've invested more in this.
signed, once a hopeless romantic, always a hopeless romantic

boys 39

OK! BEFORE YOU READ THIS ONE, READ THE ONE BEFORE IT!
Sooo where left off, me and C.B. decided to go out again. We went out, but my parents didn't know and thought I was with someone else. My dad saw this text from C.B. and they freaked. So then my dad called C.B. and had him come over to talk; it was the most frightened I have ever been for someone else: I kid you not. Then, everything was fine for a while. Until my dad checked my phone randomly and saw some texts from C.B., one of which was "!10/10 would bang" in reference to me. My parents freaked again, my mom threatened to put me on the pill and they agreed we were moving too fast.(which we aren't considering the fact that we only went out on an actual date once and we haven't even kissed)  Even with all of these occurences or bumps with our relationship, I have to admit that I do have really strong feelings for him and I know he has strong feelings for me too. I'll continue with another post!
signed, un momento por favor

boys 38

Hope that's the right number haha. Ok sooooo for about a month, I went out with T.E. from the beginning of June to the beginning of July. That was a huge mistake, and I honestly went out with him at first just to give him a chance. Then I ende up having feelings for him, but I realized I still really liked C.B. and broke up with T.E.(not to mention the fact that T.E. was like a flipping sex addict or something...awkward turtle...) Then, work started, and me and C.B. were cool and were just friends. Then my friend M.L. was like "he still totally likes you obviously" and I didn't believe her, so she asked him and he told me that he still had feelings for me too but couldn't be in a relationship blah blah blah. Then about an hour later, he was like "I changed my mind, screw it, will you go out with me?" and obviously I was like yes! So then we went out, but this is getting kinda long(that's what she said) so I will make another post!
signed continue reading

whoaaaa

Hey guys! So I know it's been a while since I've been on, and for that I apologize. Well, it's the beginning of yet another year of higher learning here at Renaissance High School.  My schedule's pretty difficult. World History, Physics, Pre Calculus, Spanish 3, AP English, Newspaper, and AP Macro Economics.  I must be insane right??? hahaha pretend that was funny :P So I've got plenty to tell you about what's happening to me in terms of my so called love life! Yay for awkward turtles!
signed, holy crap I'm an upper classman!

The Outsiders

Ponyboy
     One of them laughed, then cussed me out in a low voice.  I couldn't think of anything to say.  There just isn't a whole lot you can say while waiting to get mugged, so I kept my mouth shut.
     "Need a haircut, greaser?" The medium-sized blond pulled a knife out of his back pocket and flipped the blade open.
      I finally thought of something to say. "No" I was backing up, away from that knife.  Of course I backed right into one of them.  They had me down in a second.  They had my arms and legs pinned down and one of them was sitting on my chest with his knees on my elbows, and if you don't think that hurts, you're crazy.  I fought to get loose, and almost did for a second; then they tightened up on me and the one on my chest slugged me a couple of times.  So I lay still, swearing at them between gasps.  A blade was held against my throat.
     "How'd you like that haircut to begin just below the chin?"
signed, I love this book

whoa...

so I just realized that I haven't really been talking about books on here in quite some time, so right now I'm rereading the Outsiders so I'll post the thingy in a sec...

boys 37

Oh yeah. I forgot to post about how that tutoring session thingy went with T.E. He ended up coming upstairs after we already went upstairs. At first he sat at the first table even though I was sitting at the middle table with everyone else. So then I was like "so do you need help?" and then he walked over and sat down on the opposite side of the table. So then I was trying to help him, but man, some of the stuff he was saying and confused about was really weird. Like he was confused about the relationship between diameter and radius. And I just couldn't even keep a straight face and not laugh. For a smart guy, he's dumb when it comes to geometry, but overall, it wasn't as awkward as I had thought it was gonna be.
signed, possibly less of an awkward turtle?

random

so today, Starkid is doing a show at a theater in Ann Arbor. I am so sad that I can't go and see them. Gosh darn these finals!!!!!!!! It was totally within my grasp to go and see them perform, and it's a new show called Apocalyptour. SAD FACE TIMES INFINITY!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I will be listening to all the Starkid music I have on my IPod on repeat today and will be crying internally. Shoutout to Self-Proclaimed Nerd for fully supporting me in my sadness today!
signed, forever team starkid

quote of the day

Be the change you wish to see in the world.
           -Some shirt I got at Motor City Pride Fest
that's such a cool shirt I got there...yeah

boys 36

So today, I have another meeting/rehearsal thingy and I'm gonna see C.B. again. On Saturday, I had P.R. try and find out whether or not C.B. still likes me.  P.R. said that C.B. wouldn't say outright that he still liked me, but he said that he was gonna see where things go this summer. To me, that seems like he still has feelings for me, but that he's just not sure whether or not he's going to act on them. Maybe I'm just clinging hopelessly to a shred of hope. Goodness, this seems so pathetic when I go and read it over. Geez.

signed, hopelessly devoted

quote of the day

"I'm gonna release my hummingbird ostrich murder birds!" EN ESPANOL "Voy a soltar mis colibri asesinan e las aves de avestruz!"
           -Penguin, Holy Musical B@tman!
signed, look at me! I'm bilingual!

quote of the day

"I'm not saying that either Socs or Greasers are better; that's just the way things are."
               -Ponyboy, The Outsiders
signed, I love Ponyboy

quote of the day

"Stay gold, Ponyboy."
             -The Outsiders
signed, i love S.E. Hinton's books

boys 35

yesterday, me and C.B. were texting and he randomly said "grinding man" so I was like "umm what?" and he repeated himself. Then he started talking about how grinding was uncomfortable or something, and I was like "I wouldnt know". He was like "really now?" like that was some big shock or something. I was like "Is that unbelievable or something?" and he was like "yeah" and I was confused as to why that would be unbelievable that I wouldnt know what grinding felt like.  So he was like "I just think its something most teenagers would know and have done" and I was like "Then I'm one of the few that dont".  Still, he seemed surprised/shocked that I wouldnt know about grinding, and that's weird. Then conversation turned away from that topic and was less awkward. However, that stuck in my head. Like, why would it be unbelievable? Maybe I'm overthinking this and reading into it too much.
signed, one of the few

boys 34

yesterday, T.E. was texting me about geometry. Apparently he's failing and he needs/wants tutoring, so he asked me to help him and wanted to know if he could come with me to Mrs. N's room during lunch today.  I was like "um my friends don't like it when other people come upstairs with us to her room" but I felt bad cause finals are next week and if he's failing, he needs to do well. So he's gonna come with me and my friends so we can help him and apparently M.H. needs help as well.  When I said that my friends were cool with him coming(despite the potential awkwardness) and that they were gonna help him too, he seemed to be like "oh i guess that's cool" but said "the more help the better". I don't know what he thought it was gonna be, but I don't like him in that way.  And then later, he kept saying these really creepy things that I can't even post on here because it's so flipping creepy. O.O
signed, i was creeped on

boys 33

ok so on Wednesday, I had to go to this meeting/rehearsal for DGPC, this place where I work in the summer. And I knew that C.B. was going to be there because the lady in charge asked me to give him paperwork from the meeting he missed and to make sure he knew when the meetings/rehearsals were.  So I walked in and everybody who was already there were all sitting at this one table, so I was like "oh ok I'll go sit by everybody cause I know these people" and he was sitting across from me. and it was a little awkward cause it was like "oh yeah" and then P.R. showed up so me and C.B. were talking to him. It seemed less awkward and pretty fun. Later, C.B. kept tickling me, and when I say tickling, I mean like constantly tickling me.  Not gonna lie, it seemed like how things used to be between us. It made me realize that I still have feelings for C.B., which may or mayn't be good.  We've been texting a lot lately and he keeps saying "te amo"(spanish for I love you) because I kept saying he molested me.  I don't know how he feels about me but I know that I still like him.*sigh*
signed, so yeah

boys 32

so T.E. still keeps texting me like constantly and he's even more talkative to me in person as well.  It's a little weird and out of character but yeah.  Also, yesterday me and him were texting and he kept saying that he was hungry and I was like "can't help you with that" and then he was like "sure you can. cook me something" \. So then I was like "nope who do you think I am, your wife or something?" and I immediately regretted it after I sent it, but he responded "lol yeah" and it was weird and then he pretended to get all offended because I was like "hell no I'm not your wife or anyone's wife" It was just really weird.
signed, awkward turtle

quote of the day

"We have love.  If we have that, everything will be fine."
           -Romeo and Juliet and Vampires
signed, so yeah

boys 31

me and C.B. have been talking a lot lately. it's confusing to me because it's so easy to talk to him and it just feels safe and natural. When he texts me, it feels like I still have feelings for him, but I really don't know.  I'd love to tell him about it and see whether or not he still feels the same way about me. But to be completely honest, I'm scared to see what he would say. Also, T.E.'s been texting me for like the past two days and I'm not sure how I feel about that.
signed, forever alone and confused

boys 30

yesterday, after conditioning, me and N.R. were sitting outside listening to her music and then she got out her clarinet and started playing and I was trying to record it. then out of nowhere, J.B. walks up and just stands next to me which was weird cause I was sitting down which made me shorter. and then he acted like he wanted a hug but I couldn't cause I was trying to record N.R.'s musical abilities. and then N.R.'s ride came so she left me and J.B. alone outside. He sat down next to me and was just listening to his music and it was such an awkward turtle. and then he was like "so whats up?" making things even more awkward and as I started to answer, my ride pulled up so I was like "oh my ride's here bye!" but I couldn't help but think "thank the lord my ride is here!"
signed, forever an awkward turtle

quote of the day...again

"I don't wanna see you go, but it's not forever, not forever. Even if it was, you know that I would never let it get me down cause you're the part of me that makes me better wherever I go. So I will try not to cry, but no one needs to say goodbye."
             -Ensemble, "Days of Summer", A Very Potter Sequel
signed, team starkid forever

quote of the day

"Baby, you're not alone cause you're here with me. And nothing's ever gonna bring us down cause nothing can keep me from loving you. And you know it's true. It don't matter what it comes to be, our love is all we need to make it through."
                  -Ginny, Ron, Hermione, and Harry, "Not Alone", A Very Potter Musical
signed, a true team starkid follower and starship ranger

boys 29

so geometry wasn't as bad as I had anticipated. I sat next to Di.M. cause C.J. wasn't there. But I saw J.B. staring at me more than once.  It's weird because he's back with his girlfriend so he shouldn't be staring at me whatsoever.  I don't know whether or not he still likes me, but he acts like it. It's more than a little messed up and I hate it.  He's with her and he shouldn't be acting like he's still nto me.
signed, confused

life

yesterday we had a soccer game. we lost because the  defense decided to be extra sucky and not talk to each other at all. I pulled a muscle in my leg last week so I was trying to take it easy, but then me and this girl were going for the ball and her cleat went into my ankle and I had to get off the field. It killed majorly, and it's sore and hurts like hell today. I'm  bit ticked off but whatever.
for all those reading,
from your starship ranger

my other fortune cookie quote

Great thoughts come from the heart.

my fortune cookie quote

Time is precious, but truth is more precious than time.

boys 28

so me and J.B. were talking this weekend and it was really weird. He was talking about this fair he was at and then he said that it was perfect for dates and stuff like that. and I was like "um ok...". and then today me and Di.M. and De.M.(they're twins) were at C.J.'s freshman locker and then we were just standinthere being awkward turtles and J.B. walks by with his girlfriend, stops walking, crosses in front of his girlfriend, and hugs me forcibly.  I was in the middle of talking and my books were semi in between us and his girlfriend was also in the middle of talking. And afterwards, he just walked away. He didn't say anything before or after; just hugged me and walked away.  It was so awkward and weird and semi creepy.  This is why I'm dreading going to geometry because me and Di.M. and C.J.(though she's not here today) have that class with him.
signed, don't want to go to geometry

quote of the day...again

"Ok, where'd you put the Invisibility Cloak?" "I put it on that magical walking chair-oh god."
                      -Harry and Ron, A Very Potter Musical
signed, team starkid

quote of the day

"When I rule the world, I'll plant flowers." "When I rule the world, I'll have snakes."
                          -Quirrell and Voldemort, A Very Potter Musical
signed, team starkid forever

boys 27

so yesterday me and T.E. were texting as well. but I was semi pissed off at him cause yesterday, my mom made me wear a skirt to school, and he laughed at me. so I told him that I was gonna punch him and he was like "why" and I was like "cause you laughed at me today" and he was like "you looked nice" and then it was an awkward turtle for the rest of the conversation.
signed, forever an awkward turtle

boys 26

Yesterday, me and J.B. were texting and he was telling me about his youtube videos and how I should watch them.(sidenote: that reminded me of how C.B. always told me to watch his videos too cause he posts video of him playing the cello or guitar) so I was like ok... so I went on youtube and was watching them and he's pretty talented, when his videos are him playing the guitar or drums. Some of his videos are of him talking about whatever he wants. Like this one was about summer clothes or something and he was going on and on about how one should dress. It was really funny and I think you guys should definitely watch his videos cause frankly when he talks about stuff on his videos, I don't think anybody would be able to take him seriously. His name on youtube is viperjet18 so go and watch his videos when you get a chance.
signed, did i really just plug his videos?

my starkid obsession

I am currently like crazy obsessed with TEAM STARKID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Team Starkid is the best thing ever and it's "totally awesome!" Team Starkid does musicals and they're totally awesome!!!!!! They have done A Very Potter Musical A Very Potter Sequel Starship Holy Musical B@tman  and Me and My Dick(i have not watched that one) and the one they are currently touring with is Apocalyptour I'm so excited for them to post it!!!!!
signed forever team starkid

quote of the day

"I wanna be a Starship Ranger!...The needs of the many bugs outweigh the few."
                 -Starship
signed, team starkid forever

boys 25

also T.E. was texting me like all weekend, from Friday to Sunday. it's weird how we always seem to have something to talk about but me and J.B. never do. another weird thing. and here's another one: yesterday T.C. posted happy birthday on my wall, which is really weird because we don't associate at all. when we pass each other in the hallways, we both act like we don't see each other. so I'm not sure if that means something or not.
signed, forever awkward turtle

boys 24

so me and J.B. are trying to be friends and it's weird. also me and N.R. were talking to him on Friday and she mentioned that apparently he's back together with his ex and he was like "oh yeah i forgot how childish she is" and blah blah blah. and then yesterday he was texting me and he texted me first which was weird so I was like "why'd you text?" but I think he took offense to that and thought I was being rude so then I felt like I had to explain myself and everything. oh and every morning when I'm by my locker, he appears out of nowhere and gives me a hug like we're best friends or something. it's just weird.
signed, awkward turtle forever

life

so life is weird for me right now. on a side note, I'm officially 16 years old as of yesterday. woohoo
signed, so yeah

quote of the day

"Regrets collect like old friends...cause I like to keep my issues drawn, it's always darkest before the dawn. Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out."
                 -Florence and the Machine, "Shake it out"

boys 23

so yesterday me and J.B. broke up. as much as I hate to admit it, it was sad. I haven't been that sad since me and C.B. broke up. which reminds me that C.B. started talking to me again on Friday.  It was as if we had never stopped talking.  It really showed me how messed up my relationship with J.B. was because conversation was difficult and awkward while conversation between me and C.B. have never had issues with conversation like it just was easy to talk to each other.  Maybe it's a sign that as soon as C.B. started talking to me that me and J.B. broke up. I really don't know anymore. All I know is I'm sad and slightly depressed.
signed, sad

quote of the day

"Tonight will be a night of-" "Dancing!" *silence* "...Yeah!"
                    -Batman and Robin, Holy Musical B@tman
signed, i really love starkid potter

random

just pointing this out, the picture on my profile is not very recent.  This picture was at least 4 years ago possibly 5.
signed, awkward....

boys 22

ok back to that subject I brought up before. Last night he was texting me and asking if I've ever been frenched before. and I'm like "um no" so he goes on and talks about how he'll teach me and how that's not the only thing he'll teach me O_O
signed, awkward turtle

quote of the day

"Promise you won't go out and get mugged and murdered on me." "I cross my heart!"
            -Batman and Robin, Holy Musical B@tman
signed, i love starkid potter

boys 21

so J.B. is being really weird and keeps telling me about all this stuff that he's gonna teach me O_O
signed, extremely awkward turtle

quote of the day

"Yeah, she sure is beautiful..." "Beautiful? More like supermegafoxyawesome HOT!"
            -Harry Potter and Ginny talking about Cho Chang, A Very Potter Musical
signed, i wanna go see apocalpytour

who I want to punch right now

so there are a few people I want to punch right now. First and foremost is Sassy Blue because she is really irritating me right now -_- and now I kinda also wanna punch Self-Proclaimed Nerd because she's over here singing her scales really really bad and she knows it too.
signed, attempting to control my temper

quote of the day

"Buddies. Bros. Homies. Amigos. Pizza. Nintendo. Woo, woo, woo! Let's go!"
                  -Batman and Robin, Holy Musical B@tman
signed, wannabe starkid potter

quote of the day

"Love is the flower you've got to let grow."
                  -John Lennon

life

so here I am, sitting in newspaper pretending to be busy doing something.  on a separate note, this brown sugar cinnamon poptart is flipping amazing! yeah that's it right now.
signed, awkward turtle

thanks!

so just to be weird and random, I'd like to say thanks to anybody out there reading this, especially if you don't know me personally.  Shoutout to you viewers in Russia and the UK! muchas gracias! If any of you guys have blogs that you want more people reading, follow my blog and I'll go and follow yours as well!
signed, feels like someone's listening to the awkward turtle that is my life!

quote of the day

"You hit me once, I hit you back.  You gave a kick, I gave a slap.  You smashed a plate over my head, then I set fire to our bed."
                   -Florence and the Machine, "Kiss with a Fist"

signed, "kiss with a fist"

boys 20

oh and if all that wasn't enough, M.H. told me some very startling news yesterday which made it very hard to keep a straight face around J.B. O_O oh and also, T.E. has been actually like talking to me in person lately and it seems like flirting to me and I kinda just wanna be like "go away" and then today after school while I was waiting for my ride, Z.R.W.(a friend of mine who had journalism with me last year) was telling these 2 people C. and S.(last names unknown to me) about how T.E. likes me and I was like "ohmygoodness why would you bring that up??? stop talking about that awkward turtle"
signed, forever awkward(but not as awkward as M.H. no offense)

boys 19

Yesterday, me and N.R.(a friend of mine and is also on the soccer team) were wandering around after school because no one was at practice and so me and J.B. were texting cause at that point we still hadn't talked and he was like "where are you?" and so I told him and then he was like "come down here" and since we were already gonna go to where he was cause N.R.'s boyfriend was in there, I was like "ok we're on the way" and it was weird cause T.E. was in there too and sitting right across from J.B. so of course I was like "i don't wanna talk about it now" and then N.R. specifically left me alone in there so we would be forced to talk. So J.B. comes up to me and is like "are we gonna talk now?" and I was like yeah so I asked him what the hell we were actually doing because we had barely talked in person since he told me he liked me and he was like "i don't know" and so there was a lot of weird conversation between the 2 of us like "well i know that i like you" and "well is this a relationship?" and "i don't know what do you wanna do/want this to be?" and after we were pretty much done talking, I was still honestly confused as to what we are. he kept saying that it felt like it was the first time he had ever told a girl he liked her and that he had never had to talk it out(meaning the relationship) and that I was the first girl who didn't come on so strong to him. I was just like "oh ok" like what the hell am I supposed to say to that? is it a bad thing that it felt like the first relationship to him or that I'm not coming on to him strongly? I don't understand how I was supposed to respond at all. oh and he also said something about us not "making it official" like official how? making out? facebook official? WHAT THE HELL DOES HE MEAN???? He confuses the hell out of me, and I haven't felt this confused since me and C.B. were together.  and today, we didn't really talk at all besides saying "hey" in the hallways and in geometry and english. In the hallways, it did seem like he went out of his way to say hi to me, but that really doesn't mean anything.
signed, forever confused

boys 18(please read boys 17 before this one)

ok so here's the rest of the story.....he keeps asking when we're gonna kiss.  It's not like I've never been kissed before or anything or like I feel he's pressuring me to do something I don't want to.  It's just like we don't ever actually talk.  We text, with the occassional "hey" in geometry when I pass him on the way to my desk or the occassional eye contact during english.  We pass each other in the hallways all the time, during which he's either with T.E. or with his ex-girlfriend and her friends or with both and I'm definitely not about to approach him when he's with those people.  Last Friday, he asked where we were supposed to go from that point(deciding we were dating) and I said that I wasn't sure cause dating's not my forte and whatnot.  He seemed surprised(not sure if that was a good thing or not) and started telling me to go with the flow especially when he's kissing me and that I shouldn't pull away both emotionally and physically when he's kissing me.  Now I'm not gonna lie and say that I haven't thought about kissing him, but I think that we should actually like spend time together or something before we decide to start making out and whatnot, especially around the school.  I'm not really sure of how this relationship is going to work out or how I'm going to deal with this whole kissing ordeal.  I do want it to work out between us but I'm not really sure how to make it work.  Several times today I thought about finding him and just confronting him about it, but of course I left it until the end of the day when apparently he had drumline practice.  So I've already told him that we need to talk tomorrow so hopefully that'll actually happen tomorrow either during breakfast, school, lunch, or after school.
signed, confused

boys 17

ok so here's how it happened.  Last Friday, J.B. was texting me and asking me all these questions about my life and stuff. So naturally I was like why do you care? He answered with "i want to get to know you better" so I said "why?" and he said "Cause I like you" and I was like "oh thanks i guess" and then here's where it gets a little more awkward. He says "You know what I mean right?" and I was trying to avoid having him say it so I said "Like a friend right?" and he sent me a text saying ".....no" and then by the power of fate or whatever you want to believe it was, we ended up agreeing on the fact that we are dating.  Don't get me wrong, I like him and everything, but it's still a bit weird and awkward.  Also, after I told M.H. about this, she brought up the fact that they had also been in a relationship that was also awkward.  I had to fight back against my natural instincts and not remind her that I also had an awkward relationship with him BEFORE she did and surprisingly enough, I still haven't mentioned that to her. I'm sure she remembers because despite what I tell her, she is pretty smart.....for being herself.  anyways this is getting to be pretty long(that's what she said) so I'm gonna put the rest in another post
signed, maybe not forever alone?

boys 16

so it's been a while since I've blogged about boys which is just as big of a surprise to you as it is to me.  however I've got big news! Me and J.B. are now dating! more later!

quote of the day

"Uh thanks, Robin, but where are your pants?" "Pants are a luxury. My costume's designed to be aerodynamic." "God, you suck."
      -Commissionor Gordon and Robin, Holy Musical B@tman
signed, huge fan of starkid potter

another quote of the day!

"I'm in lesbians with you." "What?" "I really really mean it." "Okay..."
                      -Scott and Ramona, Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
signed, huge michael cera fan

another quote of the day!

"I could honestly eat bread for every meal, all the time." "Yeah, but then you'd get fat." "Why would I get fat?" "Bread makes you fat." "Bread makes you fat?!?!"
               -Scott and Ramona, Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
signed, once again huge scott pilgrim fan

another quote of the day

"This is-"(a duel)"This is-"(to the)"This is-"(death)"What?!" "This is boring"
                 -Scott and Wallace, Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
sidenote: the underlined part of the quote is Wallace speaking and the part in parentheses is Scott reading an email.
signed, huge Scott Pilgrim fan

another quote of the day

There are only 4 questions in life, Don Octavia. What is sacred, of what is the spirit made, what is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.
             -Don Juan De Marco
signed, huge fan of Johnny Depp

another quote of the day

I want you to want me. I need you to need me. I love you to love me. I beg you to beg me.
              -Cheap Trick
not 100% that's who originally sang it, but that's the version I know.

another quote of the day

"Basically, I've just been putting anybody who looks like a good guy into Gryffindor, anybody who looks like a bad guy into Slytherin, and the others can just go wherever the hell they want, I don't care." "Hufflepuffs are particularly good finders." "What the hell is  Hufflepuff?" -awkward silence-
                  -Dumbledore and Cedric Diggory, A Very Potter Musical
signed, such a potterhead

quote of the day again

I could be falling in love, falling in love, falling in love. I could be falling in love, falling in love, falling in love with Hermione Granger, danger.....
                    -Ron and Draco, A Very Potter Musical
signed, potterhead

ANOTHER WARNING

if you are easily offended by cursing, I strongly urge you not to look at the quote of the day post directly below this. I didn't say it, but I think it's hilarious so I posted it. You are hereby considered warned

quote of the day

"My name is Bruce-Man, wait! I'm Bat Wayne, fuck! Can I start over? I'm Batman, fuck it! I'm Bruce Wayne."
                       -Batman, Holy Musical B@tman
signed, i love starkid potter

WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so in this next quote, I am going to curse and I am trying to warn whoever may be offended by what is in this quote.

my current obsession

I am currently obsessed with this Australian actor, Callan McAuliffe. He played Bryce in the movie Flipped and he played Sam in the movie I Am Number Four and he's gonna play the young version of Gatsby in the movie The Great Gatsby. He is totally awesome and amazing and has an awesome Australian accent but can talk with no accent for movies and stuff.  He's so awesome....
signed, semi stalker

harry potter

so one thing you should know about me is that I am completely obsessed with Harry Potter :) and also I just signed up for this website called pottermore which is so cool and was just opened to the public. www.pottermore.com see it and friend me! my username is UnicornDust23961
signed, UnicornDust23961

that awkward moment....

That awkward moment when your two year old sister walks better in heels than you do.

information about myself

So I changed the name of this and  I changed the background.  I don't know if I can be considered a total drama geek when I still haven't seen Wicked or Phantom of the Opera. Total failure. oh well, I still consider myself to be a drama geek and I'm totally ok with that!
signed, self proclaimed drama geek

quote of the day

But you didn't have to cut me off, make out like it didn't happen and that we were nothing. And I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough. But you didn't have to stoop so low, have your friends collect your records and then change your number. I guess that I don't need that though, now you're just somebody that I used to know.
                      -Gotye
signed, obsessed with this song

quote of the day

Now you're just somebody that I used to know.
            -Gotye
signed, music lover

that awkward moment....

That awkward moment when you sit down too long and when you stand up, you're like Katniss after being stung by tracker jackers.

quote of the day

"Sadly, John Hughes did not direct my life."
               -Easy A
signed, movie buff

life

so I know that I said I was gonna post yesterday but I was really tired and tonight I already have a bunch of homework so I probably won't get a chance to post tonight because I do happen to enjoy sleeping. However, our spring break or whatever it's called starts on Friday so I can post later this week. yay!!! break from school! so I'm a little ticked off because I have to rewrite my Obamacre story because my advisor said it was confusing and I have to make it an editorial. blah.....
signed, slacker staff writer

quote of the day

"Scott, you are the salt of the earth."  "Aw, thanks."  "I meant scum of the earth."  "Aw, thanks."
              -Kim and Scott, Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
signed, huge fan of Michael Cera

life

so life is very confusing for me right now which I'll post about later. just stuff in my life. BUT today Mrs. W. (my English teacher) told us that the books close for this quarter on April 18!!!! yay!!! I really hope my algebra grade went up because if not, my GPA will be screwed. this also goes for my chemistry grade, but that's going up every day and with every homework assignment. My algebra teacher rarely collects the homework so my grade is kinda low compared to what it should/could be. I also can't believe I have a C in Spanish because I have everything turned in. it's just confusion....
signed, suddenly studious(knockoff of "Suddenly Seymour" from Little Shop of Horrors)

quote of the day...again

"The sun goes down, the stars come out. And all that counts is here and now. My universe will never be the same. I'm glad you came, I'm glad you came."
             -The Wanted, "Glad You Came"
signed, am i?

boys 15

so now that I've covered T.C., J.B., and T.E., only one left: C.B. Of course, it wouldn't be me if I wasn't going on and on about C.B. at some point in time. So to recap, I've pretty much liked him since we met in 2007-ish, we were really close, he would tell me about the girls he crushed on(so painful), then his freshman year and my 8th grade year, he's pressuring me to go to Cass because it's better than the rest, I tell him I'm going to Renaissance, he says it's cool I won't be a douche and be mad, summer of 2011 we were working together at a performing arts camp, he tells me he's "in like with me" and goes on this whole rant about how he likes me, i tell him I like him too, he asks me out, I say yes, so we're dating(all after date with J.B. never happened), school starts and we're still together, he breaks up with me around mid October, we don't talk, new year's comes and a mutual friend pushes us back together, we're cool, he says he can't be in a relationship but he still likes me, we decide to stay single until timing's good, he tweets about some girl sending him mixed signals and turning him down, I'm just here. So I still have these crazy strong feelings for him, and a part of me wants to tell him that, but I can't. Saying stuff like that has always made me feel vulnerable, but it used to not be that way with him. I'm sure my friends don't really wanna hear about how much I(dare I even post it?) love him, so here is really the only place I can talk about it, which isn't even that good because a few of my friends actually read what I post, but yeah. That's the bottom line, I guess. I love him.
signed, hopelessly devoted

boys 14

ok now that I've covered T.C. and J.B., we've come to the subject of T.E. so lately me and T.E. have been fighting like how me and J.B. used to at the beginning of freshman year BEFORE I liked him. I don't know if that's relevant or of importance, but it is what it is. By the way, T.E. and J.B. are really close friends. anyways so the other day in chemistry, a class that me and T.E. have together, I get a text from a number I don't know saying, "psstt i'm sleepy" so naturally I'm like what the hell? and respond " who is this?" and i get a text back saying it's T.E. To me and also to C.J. and C.W.(I don't know what M.H. thought of it) this was really creepy. so that's T.E. another post coming up....again...
signed, NOT a certified creeper

boys 13

ok so now that I've covered T.C., let's move on to J.B. To recap J.B., I had a crush on him all of freshman year, summer came, I sent him a message saying I liked him with overdramatic terms, he said he liked me too, he asked me out, I said yes, date never happened, school year comes, we have first and second hour together, whole situation is awkward, then he and M.H. got together and share weird Voldemort type hugs, him and M.H. broke up, he's with new girl, still awkward, he sends me a message saying we should talk more, we're friends again, still a little awkward. so today after school, we were both outside. it was me, J.B., A.C., R.A. and someone else(???) so J.B. and A.C. start "fighting" and I'm like "A.C., I got your back" and then he starts talking about how we used to mess with each other during freshman year and how we're not freshmen anymore. so I'm like "A.C., I totally bullied him last year" and J.B.'s like "no I bullied you too" so then we started "fighting" similar to how we were freshmen year. it was weird for me because it was like we were just freshmen again and we were "fighting" like we always did. it doesn't sound weird, but pretty much everyone knew that our "fighting" last year was pretty much playful flirting, and it wasn't until after I had stopped cause R.A. stole my bag that I remembered that we weren't freshmen anymore. another post coming up...
signed, seriously a sophomore

boys 12

so it's been a while since I've posted about the boy drama/issues in my life which is probably just as surprising to you as it is to me. so let's start with T.C. the other day I kind of walked into him in the hallways at school. it was so awkward and uncomfortable. We just kinda stood there until I said "sorry" and rushed off. I wish we could just be friends, but because of how rushed things were between us that whole last week of school last year, I don't think it's at all possible for us to be just friends. I can't remember if I've posted about what happened between us so here it goes: it was the last week of school and he had started messaging me on facebook asking me all these questions. the most important one was when he asked if I liked him. At the time, I was trying to get the thought of J.B. out of my head so I said sure. T.C. then asked me to be his girlfriend and so we were together in the most common form of the word the last week of school. on the last day, I decided that I was still into J.B. and that I really shouldn't have said yes to T.C. so I broke it off with him. this is a long post so I'll make another one to continue my train of thought.
signed, maneater?

quote of the day

"Life's too short to even care at all, oh whoa oh oh. Losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control, oh oh. I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down...."
                       -Unknown to me, "Cough Syrup"
signed, music lover

Renaissance Words

so me and some others have created a new blog specifically for Renaissance publications it's called Renaissance Words(renaissancewords.blogspot.com) and you should definitely check it out! so far there's only one blogged story but that's ok! I promise there will be more coming soon!!!!
signed, semi dedicated staff writer

quote of the day.....again

"So if by the time the bar closes, and you feel like falling down, I'll carry you home tonight."
             -Fun.
signed, ^ ^ ^

quote of the day

"I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind, that I put it down into words. How wonderful life is when you're in the world."
           -Elton John, "Your Song" maybe....
signed, once again confused^^^^

life

so not much is going on. this week is world language week so there are activities going on all week after school but only a handful of them are worth talking about. my Spanish teacher did one on making pinatas and then there's lessons on dancing such as waltzing and salsa etc. and then there's a German film with an "authentic German treat" but that's pretty much it. tomorrow me and some others are supposed to be going to an economics competition thingy where we have to take 3 tests in Novi because we made it past the first one. I don't understand how my team made it with me on it but I'm not gonna doubt it. so tomorrow should be interesting.
signed, hopelessly confused

quote of the day

"I'm a racist. I despise gingers and mudbloods. I hate Gryffindor house and my parents work for the guy who killed your parents. Do you want to be my friend?"
           -Draco Malfoy, A Very Potter Sequel 
signed, "Star kid potter" fan

life

so nothing is really happening in my life at this time I'm feeling pretty boring....oh well.
signed, nothing clever

life

so life is a bit empty for me.  at times I wanna just scream and run away.  sometimes at school when I'm listening to my music, i end up listening to the same 2 songs on loop and shut the world out for a while. it worries me a little about how emo I must look to the outside world.  it also worries me about how I've kinda been shutting out a lot of my friends lately
signed, possibly turned emo?

quote of the day

"I'll get over you, I know I will. You made a hole in my heart. But I won't shed a tear for you. I'm the king of wishful thinking. I'll get over you, I know I will. I'll pretend my heart's still beating. Cause I've got no more tears for you. I'm the king of wishful thinking."
     -Unknown to me

signed, a little bit depressed

life

so nothing is really happening in my life at this time. next Monday is the banquet for musical and I'm totally excited and can't wait to see everybody!
signed, musically inclined

life

so yeah I'm in english class and guess what the assignment is. it's to write a news article on something that happened in "Black Boy" by Richard Wright.  and of course it's the day that we rotate out of newspaper. also i already have to write another news article for the paper that was really due last week but i haven't even started.
signed, slacker staff writer

another quote of the day

You know who's ugly, that Granger girl.  On a scale of 1 to 10, with 1 being really ugly, I'd give her an 8, 8.5. Definitely not higher than a 9.8, because there is always room for improvement. Not everyone's perfect like me. I'm holding out for a 10 because I'm worth it.
     -Draco Malfoy, A Very Potter Musical
signed, extreme potterhead and lover of HP musical

quote of the day

Scott, if your life had a face, I would punch it.
       -Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
signed. michael cera fan

boys 11

so yeah just to make it clear to people like M.H. I do not like J.H. anymore and it was like a 2 second crush!!!! M.H. wants me to beat her up and I will happily oblige.
so another thing. a while ago i mentioned about how a cute guy was talking to me at musical auditions and i completely forgot to mention him in any post so yeah for a little while i kinda had a crush on him and he will be referred to as C.E. so yeah that's pretty much it we were friends and he would always take my rings and propose to me with them which was interesting and then he would always sing to me which sometimes freaked me out and my friend P.R. does not like him at all so maybe that appealed to me as well lol. so yeah that's it
signed, nothing clever

concerns

so yesterday I found out that one of my friends S.B. is a cutter.  this was complete news to me until i walked up to her and C.W. while S.B. was having a panic attack and her wrist had 3 cuts and was bleeding.  it really freaked me out and i'm not sure if or what i should do.  Last year one of my other friends T.D. was cutting herself and i didn't know what to do either. we kinda stopped talking after a while and now we barely say hi.  i don't want that to happen between me and S.B. but i feel like i should tell somebody about it and try to get her help or get her to stop.  S.B. and one of our other friends K.W. used to be really close and when K.W. tried to get her to stop and gave her an ultimatum, they stopped being friends.  i think that i should really find something to do about S.B. or someone to tell.
signed, confused and concerned

life and stuff

so i'm gonna be 16 in less than 2 months and that seems really weird to me.  not awkward turtle weird but just like a holy-crap-i-can't-believe-it weird.  My parents said I might be able to get a tattoo for my birthday.  If  i do end up getting one, I'm gonna get a sun and a moon in my ears. I wanted them on my wrists but my om said that was too obvious and said she didn't know what I was gonna end up doing and what would happen if O ended up getting them on my wrists but it would be cool to have them in my ears. that's it for now!
signed, me

quote of the day

"I can't keep up with your turning tables, under your thumb I can't breathe. So I won't let you close enough to hurt me. No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me. I can't give you what you think you gave me. It's time to say goodbye to turning tables."
    -Adele, "Turning Tables
signed, huge Adele fan

boys 10

so it wouldn't be me if i didn't post something about the boy problems in my life.  T.E. still messages me on facebook and sometimes it's nice to talk to him but other times it's really awkward because there's only so much that we can talk about.  that's one way I know that I don't like him that way because when there's nothing to say, neither of us know what to do.  With C.B., when there was nothing to say, which was incredibly random and sporadic, we would just send each other smiley faces.  I really hate the fact that I still like him and it really is irritating.  Recently, he's been tweeting about some girl who's been sending him mixed messages and told someone else about how she told him she didn't want to be in a relationship with him.  I really hate myself for still having feelings for him.
signed, heartbroken?

life

So yeah there isn't much going on in my life now that musical's over. there's school and conditioning for soccer and dance and that's it.  man I really miss going to U of D every day and seeing all of those crazy theatre kids I call friends. that's not to say that I don't love them all except for like 2 of them and that's not to say I don't appreciate my other friends.  It's just that they don't get the same stuff that my theatre friends do and we talk about different stuff.
signed, no more musical....

life

so today at lunch M.H. was trying to talk to me about my blog and it was weird because i know the stuff that i post is weird so M.H. should not talk to me about my blog!!!!!
signed, embarrassed?

depression....but not for serious

so musical is over with, and I'm so sad.  that's it.  but, i get a new phone today, so i can text them all every day!!!! yay!!!! also, I've finally seen parts of harry potter musical like C.S.C. told me to, and Darren Criss is hilarious so everybody should watch that!!!
signed, the president of the classy bosses(inside joke)

life

so parent teacher conferences are today. this should be interesting especially considering that I'm supposed to get a new phone tomorrow. food for thought....... I am suffering depression from the musical ending. It ended officially 3 days ago and I'm so sad. I can't believe it's all over *teardrop*

spirit week

so it's spirit week! today's crazy hair day and if i figure out how to post pictures i will do that! i'm so sad because i don't have a staff shirt for newspaper!!!!!!!!!!! it's so sad......also check out the website for newspaper @ www.phoenixrisingdetroit.com right now that's it!!!adios

too lazy to come up with a clever name.....

Hey Hey Hey!!!!! so i haven't blogged in a while. there have been more awkward encounters in my life since November obviously because my life is an awkward black hole.  but more of that later! so my friend Tales of a Self Proclaimed Nerd posted about me so i had to throw her in here somewhere!!!!!!! ok so today's Friday and I'm literally just blathering on and on about who knows what so this should be interesting to read later! we get report cards today which should be interesting as well........so i really don't have anything else to say.  everything i have to say should be posted in a separate post by itself so bye-lo for now!
signed, too lazy to come up with a clever sign off.....