boys 15

so now that I've covered T.C., J.B., and T.E., only one left: C.B. Of course, it wouldn't be me if I wasn't going on and on about C.B. at some point in time. So to recap, I've pretty much liked him since we met in 2007-ish, we were really close, he would tell me about the girls he crushed on(so painful), then his freshman year and my 8th grade year, he's pressuring me to go to Cass because it's better than the rest, I tell him I'm going to Renaissance, he says it's cool I won't be a douche and be mad, summer of 2011 we were working together at a performing arts camp, he tells me he's "in like with me" and goes on this whole rant about how he likes me, i tell him I like him too, he asks me out, I say yes, so we're dating(all after date with J.B. never happened), school starts and we're still together, he breaks up with me around mid October, we don't talk, new year's comes and a mutual friend pushes us back together, we're cool, he says he can't be in a relationship but he still likes me, we decide to stay single until timing's good, he tweets about some girl sending him mixed signals and turning him down, I'm just here. So I still have these crazy strong feelings for him, and a part of me wants to tell him that, but I can't. Saying stuff like that has always made me feel vulnerable, but it used to not be that way with him. I'm sure my friends don't really wanna hear about how much I(dare I even post it?) love him, so here is really the only place I can talk about it, which isn't even that good because a few of my friends actually read what I post, but yeah. That's the bottom line, I guess. I love him.
signed, hopelessly devoted