Yesterday, me and N.R.(a friend of mine and is also on the soccer team) were wandering around after school because no one was at practice and so me and J.B. were texting cause at that point we still hadn't talked and he was like "where are you?" and so I told him and then he was like "come down here" and since we were already gonna go to where he was cause N.R.'s boyfriend was in there, I was like "ok we're on the way" and it was weird cause T.E. was in there too and sitting right across from J.B. so of course I was like "i don't wanna talk about it now" and then N.R. specifically left me alone in there so we would be forced to talk. So J.B. comes up to me and is like "are we gonna talk now?" and I was like yeah so I asked him what the hell we were actually doing because we had barely talked in person since he told me he liked me and he was like "i don't know" and so there was a lot of weird conversation between the 2 of us like "well i know that i like you" and "well is this a relationship?" and "i don't know what do you wanna do/want this to be?" and after we were pretty much done talking, I was still honestly confused as to what we are. he kept saying that it felt like it was the first time he had ever told a girl he liked her and that he had never had to talk it out(meaning the relationship) and that I was the first girl who didn't come on so strong to him. I was just like "oh ok" like what the hell am I supposed to say to that? is it a bad thing that it felt like the first relationship to him or that I'm not coming on to him strongly? I don't understand how I was supposed to respond at all. oh and he also said something about us not "making it official" like official how? making out? facebook official? WHAT THE HELL DOES HE MEAN???? He confuses the hell out of me, and I haven't felt this confused since me and C.B. were together. and today, we didn't really talk at all besides saying "hey" in the hallways and in geometry and english. In the hallways, it did seem like he went out of his way to say hi to me, but that really doesn't mean anything.
signed, forever confused
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