quote of the day

"You need to break out the L-word, Scott."
         "Lesbian?"
"The other L-word."
           "Lesbians?"
      -Scott Pilgrim vs. the World

signed, michael cera fan

boys 9

so because i MUST be masochistic or something i was texting T.E. earlier. it was awkward but it was even more awkward during english when he was trying to ask me questions about the book i was reading(i would post but it's a sequel) it was pretty obvious that i wanted to keep reading and not talk to anybody but apparently that's not obvious enough when your head is on the desk, you're facing the other way into your book, and when someone says hi to you all you do is wave -_- boys can seriously not take a hint somtimes. i hate to say it but i want a boyfriend. it's just i dont want T.E. or T.C. to be my boyfriend. i hate to say this even  more but im still hung up on C.B. it makes me mad to admit that but it's the truth.
signed, lost much?

daily life

so today was 11/11/11(did you make a wish?) we had a half day cause it was veterans day as well aand we got report cards. i got a 2.6 an A in geometry a D in english(still not sure how that happened) a C in chemistry an A in econ a B in algebra 3/4(because i also skip and dont do as much work as i should) a B in newspaper and a C in spanish. miss ginez(our spanish teacher) totally screwed up my grade i should have an A not a C she's screwing up everybody's grade and GPA -_- also i made it into joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat as chorus. my friend P.R. tried out too and he tried out for joseph and thinks that I.P. only got the part because I.P.'s a senior and P.R.'s a sophomore. i disagree simply based on how the 2 of them did during callbacks where everybody was there.  P.R. sounded good maybe even the best i've ever heard him sing but i also think that I.P. did better. however I.P. got picked for whatever reasons he got picked for but P.R. shouldnt complain because at least his character has a name besides chorus -_-
signed, once a chorus member always a chorus member

boys 8

ok so i have totally been avoiding T.C. and attempting to avoid T.E. as much as i can.  T.C. texted me yesterday. i didnt respond but thats because when i got it, i was at auditions and was helping my friend D. practice his song.  i dont think i wouldve responded anyway but thats not the point at the moment.  yesterday in spanish J.H. was talking about how he wanted a truce with me(cause we argue a lot) for one day. im not really sure what that means but of course i said yes because im messed up crazy like that. oh and also C.J. decided to tell me that her and T.C. were messaging on fb the other day and they were talking about the powderpuff game which ison the 18th(come support the Lady Phoenix as they play flag football and the boys as they cheerlead!!!!) T.C. was asking if she was going to the game and she said she didnt have the money and asked if he was going and he said that he would if i was O_o he's way too serious about this and even if i wasntgoing to turn him down he'd still be way too serious about this. we're sophomores in high school plus he's a year younger than i am. i've never understood why it is that younger boys seem to be way more serious than older ones or even guys the same age. C.B. was a year older than me and even though he's was thinking about college he was still giving me space to move and to breathe. with T.C. it's too heavy too much pressure. not to mention the fact we go to the same school. so i have to see him once or twice a day.  oh and just a side note here, this really cute guy from U of D remembered me from auditions for the fall play(arsenic and old lace) he was really cute and crazy nice. i dont know if i'll ever see him again but yeah.  so my life in terms of "love" is pretty messed up as of this moment in time.
signed, wtf is wrong with me?

quote of the day

tonight, tonight, it all began tonight. i saw you and the world went away. tonight, tonight, it's only you tonight. what you are, what you do, what you say. today the world was just an address, a place for me to live in.....but here you are and what was just a world is a star...tonight!
        -West Side Story

signed, anita(because i cant always hit maria's notes)

daily life

ok so today we don't have school but yesterday we did and it was a B day which means i had english, chemistry,econ, lunch,algebra 3/4, newspaper, and spanish. highlights of my day included not going to algebra 3/4(i went to miss newell's room with N.R. and V.) and during first lunch i saw my douche bag of an editor pushing a trash can around which was just awesomely hilarious :D then as usual another highlight was arguing with J.H. and then i had cheerleading -_- and then after cheer i had auditions for U of D jesuit's spring musical Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat!!! where i saw all the awesome people from last year's production of Singin' In The Rain!! those people are some of the funniest people i've ever met and they are all crazy talented!!! love them so much!
signed, lover of musical theatre

quote of the day

what we found out was the each one of us is a brain, an athlete, a basketcase, a princess, and a criminal.
      -the breakfast club

signed, lover of the 80s

boys 7

so who's ready for another variable in this awful equation???? this time it's T.C. we were together for less than a whole week, i was the one to break up with him and then pretty much ignored him[SN: i'm pretty much an awful person when it comes to guys because i have issues with i guess committment(???)] but then with the advice of one of my best friends C.J. i made up with him and then we were friends for a while.  then apparently he was took her advice and decided to tell me that he still liked me and wanted to get back together with me >.< i totally don't have feelings for him but i don't wanna break his heart which is pretty much what's going to happen.  so naturally i've been avoiding him for the past two days and hiding. this morning we were in the cafeteria for breakfast and whatnot and he was standing in front of the doors like he was waiting. so what did i do? waited til he left and then hurried out of the cafeteria to get to my locker before he started wandering the hallways. i kinda hate myself for avoiding him and avoiding talking to him and facing the problem. i also kinda hate myself for having the nerve to hide from a guy. i don't wanna face him but i know i have to
signed, self hater

daily life

so today was an A day so i had geometry, english, chemistry, econ, lunch, algebra 3/4, and newspaper. highlights of my day included officially making the book club with miss newell and my awesome friends but then these 2 annoying freshmen >:[ lowpoints of my day included seeing T.C. and seeing my english grade. i have a D a 68% i don't understand how i  got it!!!!
signed, failure

my other poem

falling
your eyes, ever so bright ever so piercing blue
seem to read me like a book
seem to know every emotion that passes through me
so blue i seem to fall deeper and deeper each time i gaze into them
you amaze me with your kindness
you seem to be unable to be mad, unable to be mean
you seem to be too good to be true
too sweet to me
too kind, too smart, too amazing
you make me fall deeper and deeper for you each time you say my name
        11/1/11

my poem

this first one's just random and no title

my heart is breaking as my hands are shaking
don't want to leave, don't want to say goodbye
thought you were nice, such a sweet guy
why i let my guard down i'll never truly know
it's too late to turn back so forward we'll both go
with my eyes closed tight i leapt off the ledge
couldn't believe when you pushed me off the edge
and that was the moment when my heart broke in two
that was the moment i realized i couldn't trust you
     10/27/11

T.E.'s second poem

the big bang
how can i use this pen to confess me love the feelings i have for you can only come from above i try to move but you continue to shove these thoughts into my skull why am i so afraid to really see you day to day? but sooner or later you strain away and my voice is gone absolutely in vain the blood rushes from my head into my veins and the color from my eyes slowly drain but here i am running for you my days are happy no longer blue my face paints red my feelings are true but my voice is gone and the key is lost when i look into your eyes i continue to be lost

again PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE comment
signed, still confused

T.E.'s first poem

thoughts of my dream
under the water my head slowly drowning i can't feel my arms i feel so lonely you appear to be saving me but in your eyes there is nothing to see in my dreams i see what we can be a force so strong a love so free in your head(i think he meant hair??) a flower, a bee in a field or marigolds why am i rejected when my love is bold i feel so forsaken wondering without a soul does my life have a goal? do you see? i'm madly in love with your hair, your smile, your eyes but you push me away and in your heart i know i'll never stay

to whoever is reading this PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment on this and tell me what you think
signed, hopelessly confused

boys 6

anybody else feel like i talk about boys a lot? hmm....food for thought. so this morning i checked my phone when i took it off the charger and i saw a text from T.E. saying goodnight at like 12 in the morning it was slightly creepy but then again creepy is like his middle name :o i know that sounds mean but it's the truth. i think i'm gonna post the poems that he's texted me later more food for thought..... ok and then of course there's me and C.B. whom i haven't talked to since we broke up and i also wrote a poem about him that i'll probably post as well. but now there's another variable in this equation(like that? i just made that up cause i'm that awesome) J.H. i honestly kinda like him cause we argue about fun things and he's just fun to be around. today at lunch i was using his whiteout that i stole to paint my nails and then he's like let me draw on your nails and iwas like ok but you gotta get up and come over here cause we were sitting at opposite ends of the table and then he got up and i really wasn't expecting that so iwas like umm...ok. then he was like holding my hand as he was drawing on my nails and i don't know what it was but it was just like something had happened....confusion.....
signed, what is wrong with me????

daily life

so today was an F day which means i had newspaper, spanish, geometry, lunch, english, chemistry, and econ. highlights of my day were in newspaper when we talked about the flash mob to advertise powderpuff which i'm both nervous and excited about :) and then one of my friends told me a secret which i'm not even gonna post on the off chance that somebody is actually reading this so shhhhhh.......!!!!!!!!!!! :o
signed, secret keeper