quote of the day

"You need to break out the L-word, Scott."
         "Lesbian?"
"The other L-word."
           "Lesbians?"
      -Scott Pilgrim vs. the World

signed, michael cera fan

boys 9

so because i MUST be masochistic or something i was texting T.E. earlier. it was awkward but it was even more awkward during english when he was trying to ask me questions about the book i was reading(i would post but it's a sequel) it was pretty obvious that i wanted to keep reading and not talk to anybody but apparently that's not obvious enough when your head is on the desk, you're facing the other way into your book, and when someone says hi to you all you do is wave -_- boys can seriously not take a hint somtimes. i hate to say it but i want a boyfriend. it's just i dont want T.E. or T.C. to be my boyfriend. i hate to say this even  more but im still hung up on C.B. it makes me mad to admit that but it's the truth.
signed, lost much?

daily life

so today was 11/11/11(did you make a wish?) we had a half day cause it was veterans day as well aand we got report cards. i got a 2.6 an A in geometry a D in english(still not sure how that happened) a C in chemistry an A in econ a B in algebra 3/4(because i also skip and dont do as much work as i should) a B in newspaper and a C in spanish. miss ginez(our spanish teacher) totally screwed up my grade i should have an A not a C she's screwing up everybody's grade and GPA -_- also i made it into joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat as chorus. my friend P.R. tried out too and he tried out for joseph and thinks that I.P. only got the part because I.P.'s a senior and P.R.'s a sophomore. i disagree simply based on how the 2 of them did during callbacks where everybody was there.  P.R. sounded good maybe even the best i've ever heard him sing but i also think that I.P. did better. however I.P. got picked for whatever reasons he got picked for but P.R. shouldnt complain because at least his character has a name besides chorus -_-
signed, once a chorus member always a chorus member

boys 8

ok so i have totally been avoiding T.C. and attempting to avoid T.E. as much as i can.  T.C. texted me yesterday. i didnt respond but thats because when i got it, i was at auditions and was helping my friend D. practice his song.  i dont think i wouldve responded anyway but thats not the point at the moment.  yesterday in spanish J.H. was talking about how he wanted a truce with me(cause we argue a lot) for one day. im not really sure what that means but of course i said yes because im messed up crazy like that. oh and also C.J. decided to tell me that her and T.C. were messaging on fb the other day and they were talking about the powderpuff game which ison the 18th(come support the Lady Phoenix as they play flag football and the boys as they cheerlead!!!!) T.C. was asking if she was going to the game and she said she didnt have the money and asked if he was going and he said that he would if i was O_o he's way too serious about this and even if i wasntgoing to turn him down he'd still be way too serious about this. we're sophomores in high school plus he's a year younger than i am. i've never understood why it is that younger boys seem to be way more serious than older ones or even guys the same age. C.B. was a year older than me and even though he's was thinking about college he was still giving me space to move and to breathe. with T.C. it's too heavy too much pressure. not to mention the fact we go to the same school. so i have to see him once or twice a day.  oh and just a side note here, this really cute guy from U of D remembered me from auditions for the fall play(arsenic and old lace) he was really cute and crazy nice. i dont know if i'll ever see him again but yeah.  so my life in terms of "love" is pretty messed up as of this moment in time.
signed, wtf is wrong with me?

quote of the day

tonight, tonight, it all began tonight. i saw you and the world went away. tonight, tonight, it's only you tonight. what you are, what you do, what you say. today the world was just an address, a place for me to live in.....but here you are and what was just a world is a star...tonight!
        -West Side Story

signed, anita(because i cant always hit maria's notes)

daily life

ok so today we don't have school but yesterday we did and it was a B day which means i had english, chemistry,econ, lunch,algebra 3/4, newspaper, and spanish. highlights of my day included not going to algebra 3/4(i went to miss newell's room with N.R. and V.) and during first lunch i saw my douche bag of an editor pushing a trash can around which was just awesomely hilarious :D then as usual another highlight was arguing with J.H. and then i had cheerleading -_- and then after cheer i had auditions for U of D jesuit's spring musical Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat!!! where i saw all the awesome people from last year's production of Singin' In The Rain!! those people are some of the funniest people i've ever met and they are all crazy talented!!! love them so much!
signed, lover of musical theatre

quote of the day

what we found out was the each one of us is a brain, an athlete, a basketcase, a princess, and a criminal.
      -the breakfast club

signed, lover of the 80s

boys 7

so who's ready for another variable in this awful equation???? this time it's T.C. we were together for less than a whole week, i was the one to break up with him and then pretty much ignored him[SN: i'm pretty much an awful person when it comes to guys because i have issues with i guess committment(???)] but then with the advice of one of my best friends C.J. i made up with him and then we were friends for a while.  then apparently he was took her advice and decided to tell me that he still liked me and wanted to get back together with me >.< i totally don't have feelings for him but i don't wanna break his heart which is pretty much what's going to happen.  so naturally i've been avoiding him for the past two days and hiding. this morning we were in the cafeteria for breakfast and whatnot and he was standing in front of the doors like he was waiting. so what did i do? waited til he left and then hurried out of the cafeteria to get to my locker before he started wandering the hallways. i kinda hate myself for avoiding him and avoiding talking to him and facing the problem. i also kinda hate myself for having the nerve to hide from a guy. i don't wanna face him but i know i have to
signed, self hater

daily life

so today was an A day so i had geometry, english, chemistry, econ, lunch, algebra 3/4, and newspaper. highlights of my day included officially making the book club with miss newell and my awesome friends but then these 2 annoying freshmen >:[ lowpoints of my day included seeing T.C. and seeing my english grade. i have a D a 68% i don't understand how i  got it!!!!
signed, failure

my other poem

falling
your eyes, ever so bright ever so piercing blue
seem to read me like a book
seem to know every emotion that passes through me
so blue i seem to fall deeper and deeper each time i gaze into them
you amaze me with your kindness
you seem to be unable to be mad, unable to be mean
you seem to be too good to be true
too sweet to me
too kind, too smart, too amazing
you make me fall deeper and deeper for you each time you say my name
        11/1/11

my poem

this first one's just random and no title

my heart is breaking as my hands are shaking
don't want to leave, don't want to say goodbye
thought you were nice, such a sweet guy
why i let my guard down i'll never truly know
it's too late to turn back so forward we'll both go
with my eyes closed tight i leapt off the ledge
couldn't believe when you pushed me off the edge
and that was the moment when my heart broke in two
that was the moment i realized i couldn't trust you
     10/27/11

T.E.'s second poem

the big bang
how can i use this pen to confess me love the feelings i have for you can only come from above i try to move but you continue to shove these thoughts into my skull why am i so afraid to really see you day to day? but sooner or later you strain away and my voice is gone absolutely in vain the blood rushes from my head into my veins and the color from my eyes slowly drain but here i am running for you my days are happy no longer blue my face paints red my feelings are true but my voice is gone and the key is lost when i look into your eyes i continue to be lost

again PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE comment
signed, still confused

T.E.'s first poem

thoughts of my dream
under the water my head slowly drowning i can't feel my arms i feel so lonely you appear to be saving me but in your eyes there is nothing to see in my dreams i see what we can be a force so strong a love so free in your head(i think he meant hair??) a flower, a bee in a field or marigolds why am i rejected when my love is bold i feel so forsaken wondering without a soul does my life have a goal? do you see? i'm madly in love with your hair, your smile, your eyes but you push me away and in your heart i know i'll never stay

to whoever is reading this PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment on this and tell me what you think
signed, hopelessly confused

boys 6

anybody else feel like i talk about boys a lot? hmm....food for thought. so this morning i checked my phone when i took it off the charger and i saw a text from T.E. saying goodnight at like 12 in the morning it was slightly creepy but then again creepy is like his middle name :o i know that sounds mean but it's the truth. i think i'm gonna post the poems that he's texted me later more food for thought..... ok and then of course there's me and C.B. whom i haven't talked to since we broke up and i also wrote a poem about him that i'll probably post as well. but now there's another variable in this equation(like that? i just made that up cause i'm that awesome) J.H. i honestly kinda like him cause we argue about fun things and he's just fun to be around. today at lunch i was using his whiteout that i stole to paint my nails and then he's like let me draw on your nails and iwas like ok but you gotta get up and come over here cause we were sitting at opposite ends of the table and then he got up and i really wasn't expecting that so iwas like umm...ok. then he was like holding my hand as he was drawing on my nails and i don't know what it was but it was just like something had happened....confusion.....
signed, what is wrong with me????

daily life

so today was an F day which means i had newspaper, spanish, geometry, lunch, english, chemistry, and econ. highlights of my day were in newspaper when we talked about the flash mob to advertise powderpuff which i'm both nervous and excited about :) and then one of my friends told me a secret which i'm not even gonna post on the off chance that somebody is actually reading this so shhhhhh.......!!!!!!!!!!! :o
signed, secret keeper

boys 5

so seeing as how i've posted about boys 5 different times, one might think i'm boy crazy. i just want you to know that i'm totally not.  just saying.  so today it was really REALLY awkward between me and T.E. he doesn't even sit at the table he's supposed to in chem class anymore and it's just weird.  i'm not really sure what to do about him.  i know that i don't like him in that way because as i previously said, i still like C.B. i don't know when my feelings for C.B. will end or if they ever will, but i feel like i should tell T.E. something about me not wanting to be in a relationship with him because the last time i just went along with something like this the guy's feelings got hurt and we ended up not talking for a long time. hmmmm.....
signed, heartbreaker?

quote of the day

the grass is the same shade of green everywhere. except on artificial lawns.
      -unknown

signed, unknown

daily life

today i had chemistry, econ, algebra 3/4, newspaper, lunch, spanish, and geometry.  highlights of my day was selling my last ticket for the costume contest on monday and voting on shirts for news staff.  also my official favorite class is newspaper cause i feel awesome however, my story totally is not even close to being finished which is a total fail literally hmmm.......
signed, stressed out

quote of the day for yesterday(fail)

we don't fall in love with fantasies.  we fall in love with real people.
       -kelly taylor, beverly hills 90210

signed, semi, but not really heartbroken

quote of the day

it's not if you have a lot of hoes. it's if you have hardworking hoes.
        -miss craighead, newspaper

signed, lololololololsssssss

daily life

i had english, chemistry, econ, lunch, algebra 3/4, newspaper, and spanish. the highlight of my day was in newspaper. we got the freephigh issues and my buildOn story was in there :o!!!!!! amazing!!!!! also we took staff pics
signed, official staff writer

halloween

so halloween's coming up!!!! time for all us fat ass americans to get our yearly exercise jk...mostly.  so whoever is actually taking the time out of their lives to read this please comment and tell what you're doing for halloween.
signed, the mad hatter

boys 4

so yesterday i was texting my friend T.E. who's in my english and chemistry class.  he's texted me 2 really deep personal poems, and i decided to ask who they were about.  turns out they were about me. gay baby anyone???? so i'm not really sure how to handle the situation because i'm hung up on C.B. and am not ready to be in a relationship with someone i see every day.  comments anybody...????
signed, horribly aware

current literature

so now i'm reading Angel by James Patterson who i totally love because he just comes out with books like every month which is insane. he's got a bunch of different series and anime books and i don't understand how he can do that cause i can't even finish writing one story which is such an ultimate FAIL..... but i don't have the cover of the book anymore but that's ok! but i just have to say that Fang is my favorite and even though Dylan is Mr. Perfect and whatnot he doesn't compare
signed, fan of Fang

daily life

so wow it's been awhile since i've posted which really is kinda bad. but today was an A day. so there was geometry, english, chemistry, economics, algebra 3/4, and newspaper.  highlights of my day included selling tickets for the halloween costume contest and knowing i got 40 E.C. points for newspaper(yay!!!!!) and C.W. being back in school. also, C.W. told me that her sister is probably gonna get tickets for Wicked which i have been dying to see because i'm pretty sure i'm one of the only musical kids at u of d who haven't seen it :o cah-razy! so crazy it has to have 2 syllables.
signed, cah-razy person

boys 3

so yeah i think the last time i posted about boys, i was talking about C.B. well this is the first time that i've mentioned this to anyone(if this counts as mentioning it to someone since my blog only has 14 views) but we broke up :( we didn't really have time for each other cause we're both busy people. quite honestly, my life has been going on the same as before so i doubt his life is affected at all.  i really hope that we'll still be friends but there's probably gonna end up being a bunch of gay babies being born(every awkward silence a gay baby is born) oh well life will go on after all the past 3 days have been fine. more or less.
signed, not really heartbroken

The Private Life of Marie Antoinette by Madame Campan, her lady-in-waiting

Few historical figures continue to excite the imagination as Marie Antoinette does.  Beautiful, willful, compassionate, and imperious, her actions in the French court of Louis XVI continues to generate heated debate nearly 2 centuries after her death aat the guillotine.  Marie Antoinette's tenure as Queen of France coincided with the increasingly virulent citizen's revolt and many hold her responsible for the chilling events that befell her subjects.
In the Private Life of Marie Antoinette, Madame Campan tells the story from her eyewitness position in the court as her Lady-in-Waiting.  A devout royalist who served the court for more than 2 decades, Campan relates what she heard and saw, providing a treasure trove of truth and detail about the everyday life and personality of Marie Antoinette against the backdrop of a court slowly unraveling in the madness of the French Revolution.

Current Literature

i finished Vampire Kisses 1-3. they were good and each book had a different twist to it and it kept my attention which is difficult to do.  now i'm reading the Private Life of Marie Antoinette.
signed, bookworm

Quote of the Day

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass by.  It's about learning to dance in the rain."
          -Unknown

signed, wish i knew who said this

Daily Life

today was an E day, which means i had algebra 2 first hour.  she wasn't there, but we took a test.  it was pretty decent except for number 17. it was like "the formula for the area of a triangle is A=1/2bh. solve for b.  if the area is 20 inches find the base" solving for b was easy(just multiply by 2 so you have 2A=bh.  then divide by h to get b by itself.  but i had no idea how to find the base. i put b=40/h so if you know the answer and can respond please do so! then i had newspaper where i had nothing to do. then spanish where we finally have a teacher :O!!!!! her name is Ms Ginez and i already hate her. she called me out in class and made it seem like i suggested we write a paragraph instead of a couple sentences >.< i wanted to be like "no crazy lady!" then i had lunch then geometry where miss denham wasn't there either. and me, DD, and SY talked while working on the worksheet. then i had english where we read a story it was ok. then chemistry where i'm not gonna talk about!  thats it so far possibly more later....
signed, haterer of mondays

Quote of the Day

Greatest thing Luke Skywalker ever did was take down the Death Star.  As far as I'm concerned, that's what everybody needs.  You need that one bad ass thing that lets you live forever.
       -Fanboys

signed, major dork

Daily Life

so nothing really happens on my saturdays because that's pretty much my downtime.  HOWEVER, on sundays, stuff happens.  today i had tap at the turning pointe, which quite honestly i think isn't that great no matter who dances there or who teaches there, but i danced with Detroit Tap Repartory(most likely spelled incorrectly) I LOVE TAP SO MUCH!!!!! the people there are really talented and just overall fun to be around.  denise( lady who runs it) was teaching a new piece to me and a few others, and it's so cool so far.  dre(lady in charge of communications) said that we can start ordering our hoodies! so psyched for them!!!! and then we jammed(thats what its called its not my word for it) to awesome songs like pumped up kicks by foster the people and some michael jackson songs which are really good to tap to!  later on i have youth group aka crew and thats pretty much my whole sunday! i am so exhausted already but in a good way and it's my body thats exhausted, but my energy is CRAZY CRAZY high at the moment!!!!!!! more tomorrow possibly later. yeah, probably later......
signed, all tapped out

Quote of the Day

Maybe it isn't supposed to happen.  That doesn't mean it isn't right.
       -Pretty in Pink

signed, lover of john hughes' 80s movies

boys 2

ever feel a connection with someone and then later sometimes feel like you're forcing something to happen?  sometimes that's how i feel with my boyfriend.  we don't really see each other much anymore, so our relationship is maintained by phones and facebook.  he always says how much he misses me, and i really miss him too.  it's just that he's really busy what with school and swimming plus he's a junior so he's getting ready for college and that's kinda scary.  i really do miss him, and i really wish i could see him.  this post was pretty much just me venting.  so whoever is reading this, i thank you for putting up with me!
signed, big worrier

Vampire Kisses by Ellen Schreiber

A new guy in town, rumors of vampires, dangerous first love. this is where it all begins.

         The mansion on top of Benson Hill has stood empty for years.  But one day it seems to be occupied, and its mysterious, handsome inhabitant Alexander Sterling becomes the source of much talk around town.  Raven, a vampire-obsessed Goth-girl who has always considered herself an outsider in "Dullsville", is determined to uncover the truth surrounding the secretive Alexander.  As she gets to know him, and their spark intensifies, Raven finds herself in some unanticipated situations.  Can Alexander make her lifelong dream come true?  But love always has its complications, especially when it can only be awakened at nightfall.

Current Literature

so i finished The Painted Boy.  it was ok but it seemed to drag on some.  now i am reading Vampire Kisses, which is a book that i have had since last year and i am now finally reading it!
signed, too many books to count

Quote of the Day

Enjoy every day of your life.  Appreciate everything your life gives you.  You'll be surprised how fast it all goes by.
                -Take Me There

signed, lover of books, lover of life

Daily Life

today was a D day. started out in econ and me and my friend who shall be known as Co were talking a lot in the back of the room :P skipping algebra 2 once again* nothing happened in newspaper except my friend known as C made a blog too(phoenixsmartone.blogspot.com) and we saw our press passes. i actually like my picture i wish that could be my ID pic too...... in spanish nothing happened. although next week, we're supposed to have an actual teacher :O!!!!!!!!! in geometry we reviewed for the test on monday. and in english we took a test on harrison bergeron which i recommend!!!
now to the interesting stuff. so spirit week was officially cancelled because of the apparant food fight during 2nd lunch yesterday and so was the pep rally that was going to be on friday.  students are all outraged but they have no one but themselves to blame.  because nobody who knows who started it will snitch and the people won't come forward the whole school is being punished.  this sucks especially for the seniors who did nothing. my theory is to blame the freshmen who are ignorant and think they're all that, when in all reality, they're lower than anybody in the school including the staff.  if i knew, i'd come forward......
signed, student with no school spirit

???

"i'm a boy. you're a girl." is that how you wanna get asked out? this is how J asked M out. now M is one of my best friends and i definitely want her to be happy blah blah blah. J is a guy i USED TO have the biggest crush on last year. and I guess i want him to be happy too but not as much as i want M to be happy.  she seems to really like him so i hope he makes her happy for a while. M, if you're reading this, he better know that if he hurts you, i'm gonna have to hunt him down.
signed, overprotective best friend

insecurities

everybody has them, but whether or not you let other people see them is up to you. for me, i try never to let anybody else see how insecure i really am. i am a dancer, and while some may argue this, i am not a thin person.  dancers are supposed to be skinny and thin, long legs and all that jazz. i am also a very short person so that also does not work to my advantage. the girls in my dance class, quite honestly, are so skinny that they could be mistaken for girls with eating disorders.  with more than half of them, you can see the majority of their bones as they dance in only booty shorts and a sports bra.  wearing my tights and leotard, i have major self esteem issues.  during the day, when the skinnier girls at school are walking around, it's easier for me to ignore it, but during dance, it's pretty much the big pink elephant in the room.  my advice is to be yourself.  come to terms with who you are and learn to love and accept yourself for being the real you, whoever that may be.  don't wanna use this reference but i will anyway. like brittany on glee said on the last episode they gave, you're a unicorn.  LOVE YOURSELF!!!! everybody's awesome and unique in their own special way. don't forget it!
signed, one small unicorn

boys

being a high school girl, i'm bound to have opinions on boys.  my theory is that some girls mature faster than guys, while other girls are on the same wavelength.  in my eyes, a guy should be chivalrous to a girl, while still giving her respect and space to make her own decisions.  my friend whose name shall be concealed as M was kinda letting this guy who shall be known as J ignore her even though they have confessed their feelings for each other.  in my eyes that's the opposite  of cool, and my friend DD and me were gonna go slap some sense into him. personally, i really REALLY wanted an excuse to do so, but that's just me, i think.  anyway, seeing as how my track record with guys isn't all that great, i guess i really shouldn't be talking, but i totally give great relationship advice.  i just can't seem to take it myself. oh well.....more later.
signed, not really single, definitely not ready to mingle

Quote of the Day

Life goes by pretty fast.  If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you might miss it.
                -Ferris Bueller, Ferris Bueller's Day off

signed, appreciater of john hughes' 80s movies

Daily Life

Today was a C day so i started out with chemistry. we had a test and i'm hoping for a low b or high c! science is by far my worst subject ever andi hate it beyond hatred.  then i had econ where rachael was "sittin in the back eatin cornbread!" no joke she totally was! skipping algebra 2 once again on to newspaper. today was relatively boring. no computers on fire, just looking at classes for the mipa fall conference. then at lunch i went to miss newell's room with niyla and courtney where we were grading papers.  miss newell is the absolute coolest teacher ever!!!!!!! then in spanish. get this we have an actual teacher! he did nothing but apparently mr gonzales who was our temporary substitute just quit cause our class was so horrible. am i the only one who thinks that's hilarious????? then in geometry i finished my work and apparently i'm like the freaking math tutor in our class and was bombarded with stupid people who just don't seem to get it!!!! oh well.......anyways i have dance later which i love!!!! hopefully there'll be more later
signed,
apparent math genius

The Painted Boy

James Li should be in Chicago, finishing high school and working at his family's restaurant. Instead, as a born member of the Yellow Dragon Clan, he is on a quest even he does not understand.  Jay's journye takes him to Santo del Vado Viejo, an Arizona desert town overrun by gangs, haunted by members of other animal clans, and perfumed by delicious food, the whole town moving to the beat of Malo Malo, a barrio rock band whose female lead guitarist captures Jay's heart.  Here he must face a series of dangerous, otherworlly, and very human, challenges not just to survive, but to prove his worth to the clan. This is Charles de Lint at his best!
So far, the book is good but I'm also only on page 105 out of 431. 

So for my fellow bookworms, I figured i'd post the books I'm currently reading and put that little summary thing if its the frst in a series. no spoiler alerts here!!!
ok so one book I'm reading is THE Painted Boy by Charles De Lint.

FIRST BLOG EVER!!!!!!

So yeah. This is my first blog, so for who's reading this which is a possible 2 people, SORRY!
so my first class of  the day was english with miss wilson. we watched 2081 and i wanted to cry, but i totally wasn't about to do that cause there were people in  the room!
skipping chemistry because i hate science, i went to econ where we had a test and i completely forgot what operation twist was, so if you know TELL ME!!  then i had lunch where i was listening to the single greatest  band in the world:THE BEATLES! skipping algebra 2 on to newspaper! the computer caught on fire and all the pics for the press passes were lost so i had to retake mine -_- and then in spanish, marquis was telling me that my dad shot him in this dream hehad even though he's never met my dad EVER. this was my day so far. oh and tonight's parent night at school, so if this is my only post, it's because i was killed!!! jk.....kinda......anyway more later sorry for being so boring!!!!!!