quote of the day...again

"The sun goes down, the stars come out. And all that counts is here and now. My universe will never be the same. I'm glad you came, I'm glad you came."
             -The Wanted, "Glad You Came"
signed, am i?

boys 15

so now that I've covered T.C., J.B., and T.E., only one left: C.B. Of course, it wouldn't be me if I wasn't going on and on about C.B. at some point in time. So to recap, I've pretty much liked him since we met in 2007-ish, we were really close, he would tell me about the girls he crushed on(so painful), then his freshman year and my 8th grade year, he's pressuring me to go to Cass because it's better than the rest, I tell him I'm going to Renaissance, he says it's cool I won't be a douche and be mad, summer of 2011 we were working together at a performing arts camp, he tells me he's "in like with me" and goes on this whole rant about how he likes me, i tell him I like him too, he asks me out, I say yes, so we're dating(all after date with J.B. never happened), school starts and we're still together, he breaks up with me around mid October, we don't talk, new year's comes and a mutual friend pushes us back together, we're cool, he says he can't be in a relationship but he still likes me, we decide to stay single until timing's good, he tweets about some girl sending him mixed signals and turning him down, I'm just here. So I still have these crazy strong feelings for him, and a part of me wants to tell him that, but I can't. Saying stuff like that has always made me feel vulnerable, but it used to not be that way with him. I'm sure my friends don't really wanna hear about how much I(dare I even post it?) love him, so here is really the only place I can talk about it, which isn't even that good because a few of my friends actually read what I post, but yeah. That's the bottom line, I guess. I love him.
signed, hopelessly devoted

boys 14

ok now that I've covered T.C. and J.B., we've come to the subject of T.E. so lately me and T.E. have been fighting like how me and J.B. used to at the beginning of freshman year BEFORE I liked him. I don't know if that's relevant or of importance, but it is what it is. By the way, T.E. and J.B. are really close friends. anyways so the other day in chemistry, a class that me and T.E. have together, I get a text from a number I don't know saying, "psstt i'm sleepy" so naturally I'm like what the hell? and respond " who is this?" and i get a text back saying it's T.E. To me and also to C.J. and C.W.(I don't know what M.H. thought of it) this was really creepy. so that's T.E. another post coming up....again...
signed, NOT a certified creeper

boys 13

ok so now that I've covered T.C., let's move on to J.B. To recap J.B., I had a crush on him all of freshman year, summer came, I sent him a message saying I liked him with overdramatic terms, he said he liked me too, he asked me out, I said yes, date never happened, school year comes, we have first and second hour together, whole situation is awkward, then he and M.H. got together and share weird Voldemort type hugs, him and M.H. broke up, he's with new girl, still awkward, he sends me a message saying we should talk more, we're friends again, still a little awkward. so today after school, we were both outside. it was me, J.B., A.C., R.A. and someone else(???) so J.B. and A.C. start "fighting" and I'm like "A.C., I got your back" and then he starts talking about how we used to mess with each other during freshman year and how we're not freshmen anymore. so I'm like "A.C., I totally bullied him last year" and J.B.'s like "no I bullied you too" so then we started "fighting" similar to how we were freshmen year. it was weird for me because it was like we were just freshmen again and we were "fighting" like we always did. it doesn't sound weird, but pretty much everyone knew that our "fighting" last year was pretty much playful flirting, and it wasn't until after I had stopped cause R.A. stole my bag that I remembered that we weren't freshmen anymore. another post coming up...
signed, seriously a sophomore

boys 12

so it's been a while since I've posted about the boy drama/issues in my life which is probably just as surprising to you as it is to me. so let's start with T.C. the other day I kind of walked into him in the hallways at school. it was so awkward and uncomfortable. We just kinda stood there until I said "sorry" and rushed off. I wish we could just be friends, but because of how rushed things were between us that whole last week of school last year, I don't think it's at all possible for us to be just friends. I can't remember if I've posted about what happened between us so here it goes: it was the last week of school and he had started messaging me on facebook asking me all these questions. the most important one was when he asked if I liked him. At the time, I was trying to get the thought of J.B. out of my head so I said sure. T.C. then asked me to be his girlfriend and so we were together in the most common form of the word the last week of school. on the last day, I decided that I was still into J.B. and that I really shouldn't have said yes to T.C. so I broke it off with him. this is a long post so I'll make another one to continue my train of thought.
signed, maneater?

quote of the day

"Life's too short to even care at all, oh whoa oh oh. Losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control, oh oh. I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down...."
                       -Unknown to me, "Cough Syrup"
signed, music lover

Renaissance Words

so me and some others have created a new blog specifically for Renaissance publications it's called Renaissance Words(renaissancewords.blogspot.com) and you should definitely check it out! so far there's only one blogged story but that's ok! I promise there will be more coming soon!!!!
signed, semi dedicated staff writer

quote of the day.....again

"So if by the time the bar closes, and you feel like falling down, I'll carry you home tonight."
             -Fun.
signed, ^ ^ ^

quote of the day

"I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind, that I put it down into words. How wonderful life is when you're in the world."
           -Elton John, "Your Song" maybe....
signed, once again confused^^^^

life

so not much is going on. this week is world language week so there are activities going on all week after school but only a handful of them are worth talking about. my Spanish teacher did one on making pinatas and then there's lessons on dancing such as waltzing and salsa etc. and then there's a German film with an "authentic German treat" but that's pretty much it. tomorrow me and some others are supposed to be going to an economics competition thingy where we have to take 3 tests in Novi because we made it past the first one. I don't understand how my team made it with me on it but I'm not gonna doubt it. so tomorrow should be interesting.
signed, hopelessly confused

quote of the day

"I'm a racist. I despise gingers and mudbloods. I hate Gryffindor house and my parents work for the guy who killed your parents. Do you want to be my friend?"
           -Draco Malfoy, A Very Potter Sequel 
signed, "Star kid potter" fan

life

so nothing is really happening in my life at this time I'm feeling pretty boring....oh well.
signed, nothing clever

life

so life is a bit empty for me.  at times I wanna just scream and run away.  sometimes at school when I'm listening to my music, i end up listening to the same 2 songs on loop and shut the world out for a while. it worries me a little about how emo I must look to the outside world.  it also worries me about how I've kinda been shutting out a lot of my friends lately
signed, possibly turned emo?

quote of the day

"I'll get over you, I know I will. You made a hole in my heart. But I won't shed a tear for you. I'm the king of wishful thinking. I'll get over you, I know I will. I'll pretend my heart's still beating. Cause I've got no more tears for you. I'm the king of wishful thinking."
     -Unknown to me

signed, a little bit depressed

life

so nothing is really happening in my life at this time. next Monday is the banquet for musical and I'm totally excited and can't wait to see everybody!
signed, musically inclined

life

so yeah I'm in english class and guess what the assignment is. it's to write a news article on something that happened in "Black Boy" by Richard Wright.  and of course it's the day that we rotate out of newspaper. also i already have to write another news article for the paper that was really due last week but i haven't even started.
signed, slacker staff writer

another quote of the day

You know who's ugly, that Granger girl.  On a scale of 1 to 10, with 1 being really ugly, I'd give her an 8, 8.5. Definitely not higher than a 9.8, because there is always room for improvement. Not everyone's perfect like me. I'm holding out for a 10 because I'm worth it.
     -Draco Malfoy, A Very Potter Musical
signed, extreme potterhead and lover of HP musical

quote of the day

Scott, if your life had a face, I would punch it.
       -Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
signed. michael cera fan

boys 11

so yeah just to make it clear to people like M.H. I do not like J.H. anymore and it was like a 2 second crush!!!! M.H. wants me to beat her up and I will happily oblige.
so another thing. a while ago i mentioned about how a cute guy was talking to me at musical auditions and i completely forgot to mention him in any post so yeah for a little while i kinda had a crush on him and he will be referred to as C.E. so yeah that's pretty much it we were friends and he would always take my rings and propose to me with them which was interesting and then he would always sing to me which sometimes freaked me out and my friend P.R. does not like him at all so maybe that appealed to me as well lol. so yeah that's it
signed, nothing clever

concerns

so yesterday I found out that one of my friends S.B. is a cutter.  this was complete news to me until i walked up to her and C.W. while S.B. was having a panic attack and her wrist had 3 cuts and was bleeding.  it really freaked me out and i'm not sure if or what i should do.  Last year one of my other friends T.D. was cutting herself and i didn't know what to do either. we kinda stopped talking after a while and now we barely say hi.  i don't want that to happen between me and S.B. but i feel like i should tell somebody about it and try to get her help or get her to stop.  S.B. and one of our other friends K.W. used to be really close and when K.W. tried to get her to stop and gave her an ultimatum, they stopped being friends.  i think that i should really find something to do about S.B. or someone to tell.
signed, confused and concerned

life and stuff

so i'm gonna be 16 in less than 2 months and that seems really weird to me.  not awkward turtle weird but just like a holy-crap-i-can't-believe-it weird.  My parents said I might be able to get a tattoo for my birthday.  If  i do end up getting one, I'm gonna get a sun and a moon in my ears. I wanted them on my wrists but my om said that was too obvious and said she didn't know what I was gonna end up doing and what would happen if O ended up getting them on my wrists but it would be cool to have them in my ears. that's it for now!
signed, me

quote of the day

"I can't keep up with your turning tables, under your thumb I can't breathe. So I won't let you close enough to hurt me. No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me. I can't give you what you think you gave me. It's time to say goodbye to turning tables."
    -Adele, "Turning Tables
signed, huge Adele fan

boys 10

so it wouldn't be me if i didn't post something about the boy problems in my life.  T.E. still messages me on facebook and sometimes it's nice to talk to him but other times it's really awkward because there's only so much that we can talk about.  that's one way I know that I don't like him that way because when there's nothing to say, neither of us know what to do.  With C.B., when there was nothing to say, which was incredibly random and sporadic, we would just send each other smiley faces.  I really hate the fact that I still like him and it really is irritating.  Recently, he's been tweeting about some girl who's been sending him mixed messages and told someone else about how she told him she didn't want to be in a relationship with him.  I really hate myself for still having feelings for him.
signed, heartbroken?

life

So yeah there isn't much going on in my life now that musical's over. there's school and conditioning for soccer and dance and that's it.  man I really miss going to U of D every day and seeing all of those crazy theatre kids I call friends. that's not to say that I don't love them all except for like 2 of them and that's not to say I don't appreciate my other friends.  It's just that they don't get the same stuff that my theatre friends do and we talk about different stuff.
signed, no more musical....

life

so today at lunch M.H. was trying to talk to me about my blog and it was weird because i know the stuff that i post is weird so M.H. should not talk to me about my blog!!!!!
signed, embarrassed?

depression....but not for serious

so musical is over with, and I'm so sad.  that's it.  but, i get a new phone today, so i can text them all every day!!!! yay!!!! also, I've finally seen parts of harry potter musical like C.S.C. told me to, and Darren Criss is hilarious so everybody should watch that!!!
signed, the president of the classy bosses(inside joke)