another quote of the day

You know who's ugly, that Granger girl.  On a scale of 1 to 10, with 1 being really ugly, I'd give her an 8, 8.5. Definitely not higher than a 9.8, because there is always room for improvement. Not everyone's perfect like me. I'm holding out for a 10 because I'm worth it.
     -Draco Malfoy, A Very Potter Musical
signed, extreme potterhead and lover of HP musical

quote of the day

Scott, if your life had a face, I would punch it.
       -Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
signed. michael cera fan

boys 11

so yeah just to make it clear to people like M.H. I do not like J.H. anymore and it was like a 2 second crush!!!! M.H. wants me to beat her up and I will happily oblige.
so another thing. a while ago i mentioned about how a cute guy was talking to me at musical auditions and i completely forgot to mention him in any post so yeah for a little while i kinda had a crush on him and he will be referred to as C.E. so yeah that's pretty much it we were friends and he would always take my rings and propose to me with them which was interesting and then he would always sing to me which sometimes freaked me out and my friend P.R. does not like him at all so maybe that appealed to me as well lol. so yeah that's it
signed, nothing clever

concerns

so yesterday I found out that one of my friends S.B. is a cutter.  this was complete news to me until i walked up to her and C.W. while S.B. was having a panic attack and her wrist had 3 cuts and was bleeding.  it really freaked me out and i'm not sure if or what i should do.  Last year one of my other friends T.D. was cutting herself and i didn't know what to do either. we kinda stopped talking after a while and now we barely say hi.  i don't want that to happen between me and S.B. but i feel like i should tell somebody about it and try to get her help or get her to stop.  S.B. and one of our other friends K.W. used to be really close and when K.W. tried to get her to stop and gave her an ultimatum, they stopped being friends.  i think that i should really find something to do about S.B. or someone to tell.
signed, confused and concerned

life and stuff

so i'm gonna be 16 in less than 2 months and that seems really weird to me.  not awkward turtle weird but just like a holy-crap-i-can't-believe-it weird.  My parents said I might be able to get a tattoo for my birthday.  If  i do end up getting one, I'm gonna get a sun and a moon in my ears. I wanted them on my wrists but my om said that was too obvious and said she didn't know what I was gonna end up doing and what would happen if O ended up getting them on my wrists but it would be cool to have them in my ears. that's it for now!
signed, me

quote of the day

"I can't keep up with your turning tables, under your thumb I can't breathe. So I won't let you close enough to hurt me. No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me. I can't give you what you think you gave me. It's time to say goodbye to turning tables."
    -Adele, "Turning Tables
signed, huge Adele fan

boys 10

so it wouldn't be me if i didn't post something about the boy problems in my life.  T.E. still messages me on facebook and sometimes it's nice to talk to him but other times it's really awkward because there's only so much that we can talk about.  that's one way I know that I don't like him that way because when there's nothing to say, neither of us know what to do.  With C.B., when there was nothing to say, which was incredibly random and sporadic, we would just send each other smiley faces.  I really hate the fact that I still like him and it really is irritating.  Recently, he's been tweeting about some girl who's been sending him mixed messages and told someone else about how she told him she didn't want to be in a relationship with him.  I really hate myself for still having feelings for him.
signed, heartbroken?

life

So yeah there isn't much going on in my life now that musical's over. there's school and conditioning for soccer and dance and that's it.  man I really miss going to U of D every day and seeing all of those crazy theatre kids I call friends. that's not to say that I don't love them all except for like 2 of them and that's not to say I don't appreciate my other friends.  It's just that they don't get the same stuff that my theatre friends do and we talk about different stuff.
signed, no more musical....

life

so today at lunch M.H. was trying to talk to me about my blog and it was weird because i know the stuff that i post is weird so M.H. should not talk to me about my blog!!!!!
signed, embarrassed?

depression....but not for serious

so musical is over with, and I'm so sad.  that's it.  but, i get a new phone today, so i can text them all every day!!!! yay!!!! also, I've finally seen parts of harry potter musical like C.S.C. told me to, and Darren Criss is hilarious so everybody should watch that!!!
signed, the president of the classy bosses(inside joke)