concerns

so yesterday I found out that one of my friends S.B. is a cutter.  this was complete news to me until i walked up to her and C.W. while S.B. was having a panic attack and her wrist had 3 cuts and was bleeding.  it really freaked me out and i'm not sure if or what i should do.  Last year one of my other friends T.D. was cutting herself and i didn't know what to do either. we kinda stopped talking after a while and now we barely say hi.  i don't want that to happen between me and S.B. but i feel like i should tell somebody about it and try to get her help or get her to stop.  S.B. and one of our other friends K.W. used to be really close and when K.W. tried to get her to stop and gave her an ultimatum, they stopped being friends.  i think that i should really find something to do about S.B. or someone to tell.
signed, confused and concerned

life and stuff

so i'm gonna be 16 in less than 2 months and that seems really weird to me.  not awkward turtle weird but just like a holy-crap-i-can't-believe-it weird.  My parents said I might be able to get a tattoo for my birthday.  If  i do end up getting one, I'm gonna get a sun and a moon in my ears. I wanted them on my wrists but my om said that was too obvious and said she didn't know what I was gonna end up doing and what would happen if O ended up getting them on my wrists but it would be cool to have them in my ears. that's it for now!
signed, me

quote of the day

"I can't keep up with your turning tables, under your thumb I can't breathe. So I won't let you close enough to hurt me. No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me. I can't give you what you think you gave me. It's time to say goodbye to turning tables."
    -Adele, "Turning Tables
signed, huge Adele fan

boys 10

so it wouldn't be me if i didn't post something about the boy problems in my life.  T.E. still messages me on facebook and sometimes it's nice to talk to him but other times it's really awkward because there's only so much that we can talk about.  that's one way I know that I don't like him that way because when there's nothing to say, neither of us know what to do.  With C.B., when there was nothing to say, which was incredibly random and sporadic, we would just send each other smiley faces.  I really hate the fact that I still like him and it really is irritating.  Recently, he's been tweeting about some girl who's been sending him mixed messages and told someone else about how she told him she didn't want to be in a relationship with him.  I really hate myself for still having feelings for him.
signed, heartbroken?

life

So yeah there isn't much going on in my life now that musical's over. there's school and conditioning for soccer and dance and that's it.  man I really miss going to U of D every day and seeing all of those crazy theatre kids I call friends. that's not to say that I don't love them all except for like 2 of them and that's not to say I don't appreciate my other friends.  It's just that they don't get the same stuff that my theatre friends do and we talk about different stuff.
signed, no more musical....

life

so today at lunch M.H. was trying to talk to me about my blog and it was weird because i know the stuff that i post is weird so M.H. should not talk to me about my blog!!!!!
signed, embarrassed?

depression....but not for serious

so musical is over with, and I'm so sad.  that's it.  but, i get a new phone today, so i can text them all every day!!!! yay!!!! also, I've finally seen parts of harry potter musical like C.S.C. told me to, and Darren Criss is hilarious so everybody should watch that!!!
signed, the president of the classy bosses(inside joke)

life

so parent teacher conferences are today. this should be interesting especially considering that I'm supposed to get a new phone tomorrow. food for thought....... I am suffering depression from the musical ending. It ended officially 3 days ago and I'm so sad. I can't believe it's all over *teardrop*

spirit week

so it's spirit week! today's crazy hair day and if i figure out how to post pictures i will do that! i'm so sad because i don't have a staff shirt for newspaper!!!!!!!!!!! it's so sad......also check out the website for newspaper @ www.phoenixrisingdetroit.com right now that's it!!!adios

too lazy to come up with a clever name.....

Hey Hey Hey!!!!! so i haven't blogged in a while. there have been more awkward encounters in my life since November obviously because my life is an awkward black hole.  but more of that later! so my friend Tales of a Self Proclaimed Nerd posted about me so i had to throw her in here somewhere!!!!!!! ok so today's Friday and I'm literally just blathering on and on about who knows what so this should be interesting to read later! we get report cards today which should be interesting as well........so i really don't have anything else to say.  everything i have to say should be posted in a separate post by itself so bye-lo for now!
signed, too lazy to come up with a clever sign off.....