daily life

ok so today we don't have school but yesterday we did and it was a B day which means i had english, chemistry,econ, lunch,algebra 3/4, newspaper, and spanish. highlights of my day included not going to algebra 3/4(i went to miss newell's room with N.R. and V.) and during first lunch i saw my douche bag of an editor pushing a trash can around which was just awesomely hilarious :D then as usual another highlight was arguing with J.H. and then i had cheerleading -_- and then after cheer i had auditions for U of D jesuit's spring musical Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat!!! where i saw all the awesome people from last year's production of Singin' In The Rain!! those people are some of the funniest people i've ever met and they are all crazy talented!!! love them so much!
signed, lover of musical theatre

quote of the day

what we found out was the each one of us is a brain, an athlete, a basketcase, a princess, and a criminal.
      -the breakfast club

signed, lover of the 80s

boys 7

so who's ready for another variable in this awful equation???? this time it's T.C. we were together for less than a whole week, i was the one to break up with him and then pretty much ignored him[SN: i'm pretty much an awful person when it comes to guys because i have issues with i guess committment(???)] but then with the advice of one of my best friends C.J. i made up with him and then we were friends for a while.  then apparently he was took her advice and decided to tell me that he still liked me and wanted to get back together with me >.< i totally don't have feelings for him but i don't wanna break his heart which is pretty much what's going to happen.  so naturally i've been avoiding him for the past two days and hiding. this morning we were in the cafeteria for breakfast and whatnot and he was standing in front of the doors like he was waiting. so what did i do? waited til he left and then hurried out of the cafeteria to get to my locker before he started wandering the hallways. i kinda hate myself for avoiding him and avoiding talking to him and facing the problem. i also kinda hate myself for having the nerve to hide from a guy. i don't wanna face him but i know i have to
signed, self hater

daily life

so today was an A day so i had geometry, english, chemistry, econ, lunch, algebra 3/4, and newspaper. highlights of my day included officially making the book club with miss newell and my awesome friends but then these 2 annoying freshmen >:[ lowpoints of my day included seeing T.C. and seeing my english grade. i have a D a 68% i don't understand how i  got it!!!!
signed, failure

my other poem

falling
your eyes, ever so bright ever so piercing blue
seem to read me like a book
seem to know every emotion that passes through me
so blue i seem to fall deeper and deeper each time i gaze into them
you amaze me with your kindness
you seem to be unable to be mad, unable to be mean
you seem to be too good to be true
too sweet to me
too kind, too smart, too amazing
you make me fall deeper and deeper for you each time you say my name
        11/1/11

my poem

this first one's just random and no title

my heart is breaking as my hands are shaking
don't want to leave, don't want to say goodbye
thought you were nice, such a sweet guy
why i let my guard down i'll never truly know
it's too late to turn back so forward we'll both go
with my eyes closed tight i leapt off the ledge
couldn't believe when you pushed me off the edge
and that was the moment when my heart broke in two
that was the moment i realized i couldn't trust you
     10/27/11

T.E.'s second poem

the big bang
how can i use this pen to confess me love the feelings i have for you can only come from above i try to move but you continue to shove these thoughts into my skull why am i so afraid to really see you day to day? but sooner or later you strain away and my voice is gone absolutely in vain the blood rushes from my head into my veins and the color from my eyes slowly drain but here i am running for you my days are happy no longer blue my face paints red my feelings are true but my voice is gone and the key is lost when i look into your eyes i continue to be lost

again PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE comment
signed, still confused

T.E.'s first poem

thoughts of my dream
under the water my head slowly drowning i can't feel my arms i feel so lonely you appear to be saving me but in your eyes there is nothing to see in my dreams i see what we can be a force so strong a love so free in your head(i think he meant hair??) a flower, a bee in a field or marigolds why am i rejected when my love is bold i feel so forsaken wondering without a soul does my life have a goal? do you see? i'm madly in love with your hair, your smile, your eyes but you push me away and in your heart i know i'll never stay

to whoever is reading this PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment on this and tell me what you think
signed, hopelessly confused

boys 6

anybody else feel like i talk about boys a lot? hmm....food for thought. so this morning i checked my phone when i took it off the charger and i saw a text from T.E. saying goodnight at like 12 in the morning it was slightly creepy but then again creepy is like his middle name :o i know that sounds mean but it's the truth. i think i'm gonna post the poems that he's texted me later more food for thought..... ok and then of course there's me and C.B. whom i haven't talked to since we broke up and i also wrote a poem about him that i'll probably post as well. but now there's another variable in this equation(like that? i just made that up cause i'm that awesome) J.H. i honestly kinda like him cause we argue about fun things and he's just fun to be around. today at lunch i was using his whiteout that i stole to paint my nails and then he's like let me draw on your nails and iwas like ok but you gotta get up and come over here cause we were sitting at opposite ends of the table and then he got up and i really wasn't expecting that so iwas like umm...ok. then he was like holding my hand as he was drawing on my nails and i don't know what it was but it was just like something had happened....confusion.....
signed, what is wrong with me????

daily life

so today was an F day which means i had newspaper, spanish, geometry, lunch, english, chemistry, and econ. highlights of my day were in newspaper when we talked about the flash mob to advertise powderpuff which i'm both nervous and excited about :) and then one of my friends told me a secret which i'm not even gonna post on the off chance that somebody is actually reading this so shhhhhh.......!!!!!!!!!!! :o
signed, secret keeper